lynneb

I got my number changed and got rid of all the numbers of old friends. Im going to look at a car today.

Well, im 19 years old, i have realized i need to change my life before its too late. I have been diagnosed with bi-polar but refused to take the medications. This caused things to become worse. I have never really loved anyone or anything simply because i dont love myself. I loved one person once but they treated me like shit just like everyone else. I still love them, and i think i still love them becuase ive never felt that feeling before. I dont even feel that way about family.
I have come to figure out that the reason i get myself into things and get close to bad people is because its what i wanted. i didnt think i could do better. I was abused when i was a child by my uncle who would beat me. I have had a lot of issues. I tried moving out of my house recently but i realized it isnt what i want…im searching for something. I’m searching for myself.
So, i am creating a list of things that will totally change my life. Im keeping track of it on here and i want the list completed in a month and a half. I can do it because i have people willing to help me. so, heres the list.
*Change my Number
*Lose contact with everyone in my past
*Get a new car
*Throw everything away in my room and get everything new
*New clothes
*Get on Medications
*Take a trip
*Switch colleges
*Start saving money/open a bank account

If more gets added, it’ll get added. For now, this is a good start.