although I can feel it lurking inside me. I’m sure if I can just let go and cry I can start to get through the grief process and get back to remembering the good things about my father and how he’d want me to experience the moment and embrace life as he did.
Lyssa's Life List
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1. lose 75 pounds
3 entries . 2 cheers231 people -
2. Get pregnant
3 cheers804 people -
3. get a part-time job
89 people -
4. learn to ride a horse
3 cheers532 people -
5. get the laundry done
1 cheer2 people -
6. visit Yosemite
1 cheer26 people -
7. write a novel
1 cheer8,373 people -
8. Learn a martial art
2 cheers1,298 people -
9. get a mammogram
1 entry . 2 cheers34 people -
10. get another tattoo
2 entries3,054 people -
11. crochet gifts for Christmas
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12. take my nephews to the movies
1 cheer1 person -
13. start driving again
12 people -
14. read a book every week
2 entries . 1 cheer118 people -
15. participate in Avon's Walk for Breast Cancer
1 entry . 1 cheer1 person -
16. get to know my neighbors
3 cheers67 people -
17. make it through a budokon workout without stopping
2 entries1 person -
18. create small pieces of art, and leave them for people to find
2 cheers481 people -
19. teach my niece and nephews to do their makeup
1 entry1 person -
20. get fit
1 entry . 1 cheer2,318 people -
21. control my IBS
2 people -
22. clean my house
632 people -
23. attend a Budokon workshop
1 cheer1 person -
24. become a Budokon teacher
2 people -
25. write a book on fitness and nutrition
1 person -
26. become a personal trainer/life coach
1 person -
27. manage my Bipolar disorder
2 cheers130 people -
28. learn Russian
2 entries . 4 cheers2,135 people -
29. learn German
1 entry . 1 cheer3,903 people -
30. create a daily to do list and do it
1 person -
31. make a to do list
7 people -
32. Work out a very easy, very cheap and very healthy diet.
2 entries . 1 cheer6 people -
33. get a recumbent spin bike
1 person -
34. join a gym
1 cheer513 people -
35. cure my insomnia
1 entry172 people -
36. Make new friends
1 cheer11,010 people -
37. get rid of the ants in my house
1 cheer1 person -
38. laugh every day
1 entry . 1 cheer338 people -
39. take and upload a new photo of myself with my new haircut
1 person -
40. dye my hair red
258 people -
41. give 100 cheers
59 people -
42. get over this injury
2 entries2 people -
43. feel my grief
1 entry . 1 cheer1 person
I’ve had an issue with inflammation of the sacroiliac joint for about 16 years, a big reason why I was a couch potato for a good part of the last decade, but now I am determined to end that pattern. Now it flares up worse than ever. I can barely stand in the mornings, hobbling around like a 90 year old woman. My doctor has been through all the non-narcotic treatments and they aren’t working. The only non-narcotic with any effect is Toradol injections and those aren’t meant to be used long term, as in for more than three days. Vicodin works for the pain, but I really hate taking any narcotic: vicodin, demerol, any of them. I’ve tried chiropracty and steroid injections to no avail. My insurance provides a discount for non-traditional treatments, so if my doctor can’t come up with a non-narcotic solution when I see him on the 20th, I’m going to find an acupuncturist in hopes of seeing some improvement through a more natural means. I want my body back.
