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My face looks horrible! Because when I get a pimple I pick it, and then it scabs over and then I pick the scab…constantly. So it never heals lol. I haven’t gotten a pimple in a while…everything on my face is old from me picking so much! So I am going to stop picking! It is so hard for me but I am going to do it! I am cutting my nails tonight!

Well it looks like I will be finally starting classes this summer! I am so excited! All I have to do is take the placement exam (which I plan to take Monday), and register for classes! Then pay of course. We have the money to pay in full, so it looks like everything is going smoothly! I hope to get AT LEAST a 3.0 GPA so I can get some scholarships! I didn’t do well in HS so now I am making up for it! I decided to get a Bachelor’s Degree in Human Resource Management, but for now I am going to work on my associates degree. I am doing the general Associates of Arts, then going to a university to finish! I just can’t wait to start! :)

Well, now I am thinking that I may not be able to survive this deployment. About 3 days ago I looked in my husbands phone, and found messages of him calling a girl sexy, and asking her sexual questions. That REALLY crushed me, I never thought that he would do something like this! And now what is worse is he is about to leave in 4 days! I told him that I will forgive him and I will give him a chance, but if it happens again I can’t stay with him! I won’t be able to trust him for a long time. But in the past few days I have seen a change in him. But its just hard on me, because I will not be able to get over it in 4 days before he goes, and I don’t want him to leave while we are on bad terms! I am also staying with his family, and they will know something is wrong. I don’t want to tell them, but I might blurt it out by accident. But yeah, he is scheduled to leave Sunday, and it was originally supposed to be set between the 4th and the 8th. I am also pissed because he is going to be gone for 18 months, and with only 1 R&R. 12 is okay, but 18?! That is a year and a half! How lucky am I with all of this?! I find my husband talking to some other girl, they push his date up, AND he is going to be gone for 18 months! I have no idea what to do, I have been really depressed and overwhelmed these past few days! I just can’t stop crying!