maegan20

someone once said to love someone greatly, is to get hurt greatly….........married….. and i still get my heartbroken ….....i love him greatly and he hurts me greatly….never the less… i still love

i gave birth to my first child 10 weeks ago today….and i lost 25 of the 60lbs i gained during my pregnancy almost instantly… but i still want to lose 30 at LEAST . right now im 170lbs and i hold it all in my hips….. with not much time to excersize and get in shape these days i pretty much just have to learn to watch what i eat.. but im a stress eater so this will be a major task to be at least 140lbs before january when my husband comes back from his year long deployment in iraq…..... i was 135 before i got pregnant and was 195 the day i had my little one…... im not at 170lbs and stuck…... so i have got to get my butt into shape literally haha before my husband comes home and so im a happier more confident person…and can show my husband the lady he fell in love with again

i dont even know anymore, my husband is deployed for another six months…..everything was great until we married in december and he left in january…..once he left he slowly became someone else..he doesn’t love me the same way, talk to me the same way…..it like he got bored with me. nothing i do or say makes it better or the way it was….so i give up…..i dont think he can give me the love i once had..what he use to give me because its what he felt …..he cant love me…for real…......not the way he should…i dont want to just settle for less…but thats what hes giving me now…is less than real love…and i guess for now…i settle with that…but dont i deserve more?