mamidragon

added this goal in march of 2008 and now that it’s almost nov of 2009, the 1st step of the process is complete: i know why i wanna go to grad school.

i want my teaching certification and master’s at once and i found some programs that offer that. here goes sorting which one i want and applying.

-program coordinator of the place i used to volunteer at, a huge bitch who spoke to me so disrespectfully that she has ensured i’ll never volunteer again…and who occasionally calls me with animal complaints, thinking she has an “in” because she knew me…so on top of treating me like a bad employee she expects special work-related favors from me.

-cousin who leaves allllll the 24-7, intensely-challenging care of her ill mother to my mother, who has had to turn her life upside-down over it. this would be intended nothing like the first one – this would be to give her the smack in the ass she needs to not lose the respect of everyone else in the family, and i would only do it out of love, for we’ve always been very close friends. i’m closer to her than almost anyone and i’m so disgusted that if she keeps up like this, i’d honestly not care to keep up contact with her…and everyone else feels exactly the same way 10x more. even our 88-yr-old wonderful grandfather, who is never disappointed, is upset with her, and that appalls me. she has no idea. losing the family that way would kill her, i know. she has moved 3 hours away with her total jerk of a husband (at least she seems crazy about him) and is completely clueless as to the situation with her mother – she figures all we have to do is medicate the woman and watch her vegitate, when everyday is actually a trying battle that leaves a whole network of caregivers (exhaustively recruited, managed, and paid by my mother) exhausted and depleted after just a few hours with her. it would be a delicate sort of telling-off…not mindless that my cousin has the terrible misfortune of having an ill mother…

but say i don’t do it and the whole family shuns her in the coming years? we are not a shunning sort of family – she’d be the first ever- but people are actually talking that way, it is so infuriating. i don’t want to see that happen to her. i still value her friendship…but look what she’s doing to my mother.

i’ve never told anyone off.

only 3 weeks after i completed this goal, one of her falls resulted in a broken ankle. had i put this off, i might never have had the chance. thank god i did it when i did.