mandy_j88

Today was a monumental day.

In May I graduated nursing school. July 11, 2008 at 8:00 AM, I took the one test that decided my fate… The NCLEX.

I was so scared while taking the test. I felt as though I was going too fast. But I kept reminding myself that I needed to trust my first instinct. So I did. I finished in 85 questions and in 1 hour, 10 minutes. I left the testing center feeling like a total failure. There were so many things that I was SURE I didn’t get right.

And so the 48 hour wait began. I tried to keep busy but it still lingers in the back of your head. This morning at 10:50, I got on the Pearson Vue website and it said the miraculous words “Your exam results are available for review.”

I quickly grabbed my credit card and punched the numbers in. My hands were shaking and my heart pounding. I”m lucky I did not go V-Fib!!! With bated breath, I clicked, “Next”. I could hardly watch. And then I saw the word, “PASS”.

I broke down… Happy tears, like a sigh of relief. All of this that I worked so hard for finally came to an end and with that end came a new beginning. I am a nurse.

Today was a monumental day.

In May I graduated nursing school.July 11, 2008 at 8:00 AM, I took the one test that decided my fate…The NCLEX.

I was so scared while taking the test. I felt as though I was going too fast. But I kept reminding myself that I needed to trust my first instinct. So I did. I finished in 85 questions and in 1 hour, 10 minutes. I left the testing center feeling like a total failure. There were so many things that I was SURE I didn’t get right.

And so the 48 hour wait began. I tried to keep busy but it still lingers in the back of your head. This morning at 10:50, I got on the Pearson Vue website and it said the miraculous words “Your exam results are available for review.”

I quickly grabbed my credit card and punched the numbers in. My hands were shaking and my heart pounding. I’m lucky I didn’t go V-Fib!!! With bated breath, I clicked, “Next”. I could hardly watch. And then I saw the word, “PASS”.

I broke down… Happy tears, like a sigh of relief. All of this that I worked so hard for finally came to an end and with that end came a new beginning. I am a nurse.

I did do this but now I’m having regrets. I recently started talking to my friends again but I am worried that I am setting myself up for another fall. I hope things go better between us. If they get worse again I will feel like such a fool for giving them the benefit of the doubt.