mandygrlhoopla

I’m 71.1 how the hell did that happen? I have been eating as I normally do, binge diet binge diet binge and exercising in the same kind of way. But I normally don’t get this fat – may 08 and I was 58kg. The tabs I have been on def are partially responsible – I put on 8 kilos in four months so yes I can blame them to a point. But now I am coming off them, I have lost my appetite – so what do I do? snack throughout the day and I choose, quite regularly – junk. Why? I already feel crap….anyway see what unfolds.

So I’ve been reading the above book by Micheal Pollan. Pretty interesting read. The main premise of the book is “Eat Food. Not too much. Mostly plants” and then it goes on to talk about the industrialisation of our food, the public and political policies behind the current recommendations, the issues with the western diet in general and the rise of nutritionalism. Very though provoking.

I have a very fussy 7 year old and admit that I take the easy way out with him a lot. But what damage have I been doing to his health? And my own. I really have battled my weight for years and now, after a few months on an anti depressant, yikes, I am the heaviest I have ever been (without having a baby inside me that is). I have tried so many diets and am sick of whole areas of food being labelled bad – ie corn, too sugary, potatoes – too carb loaded, fruit again too sugary, and then fill my body with fake food like protein bars that I have to force down because they are so disgusting. Not withstanding any health issues with eating this way, it isn’t pleasant and it isn’t sustainable. So going to eat more whole foods and see how I go.

also i have been reading a bit of Paul McKenna stuff – the hypnotist and he has an interesting set of 4 rules to follow including, wait for it, stop eating when you are full. Basic I know but I was talking to my husband last night about this, and we spoke about when you go to a restaurant, a nice one, where the portion sizes are small. At first you kind of freak out thinking ‘how on earth could I fill up on that?’ and then you eat slowly, and there is no tv, only conversation and the eating itself is concious and an event and by the end of the meal, you know what, you are full. So Paul McKenna is really into concious eating, as is, funnily enough Micheal Pollan.

So over the next couple of weeks i’m going to add in a few of these boys rules and see how we go….

I have taken this for 4 months and it’s time now, after putting on about 8 kilos in that time, to come off it. I have been trying for 3 weeks now. Pulling apart my capsule and taking down my dose by 5 beads each day. Today I took 10 beads only. But yikes. My stomach is so upset. I am dizzy and light headed and tired – tired probably from the restless leg syndrome which plagued me when I first started this drug.

It helped at the time but I just wish doctors were more honest about the withdrawal. I have been crying and moody and down right nasty to my poor husband.

But hopefully only a few more days to go and then with exercise and healthy eating and a nice helpful doctor, things will be back to normal.