martyrofbeauty

Lately, I’ve been feeling completely empty. Dead on the inside. I don’t know why. My life hasn’t really changed. Everything’s still the same. But… I’m not the same. I want to feel alive. I NEED to feel alive. Or I feel as if I’ll simply fade away, into nothing.

At school, my friends still tell the same jokes that used to make me laugh, and I laugh along, without emotion. I pretend that nothing has changed. Though it has. I smile at appropriate moments, but the smile is for show only.

God, I’m so dead on the inside.
Is there cure?
...Somebody help me.

I waited in line for two solid days to get the book and I read it cover to cover when I got it, sitting outside of the store at 12 in the morning. Lmao. I highly recommend reading the book, even though I hate most of it.
btw.
I love Remus Lupin.
Kill Tonks.
Peace out, mates.
<3

I want to smile more. I NEVER smile, I usually sit there and stare at my friends without emotion, I suppose that’s why I make so many smiley faces on line. [: