I'm doing 30 things
i felt really crappy the past couple of days – too much pressure from all sides and i haven’t been performing well enough … it just kept going downslope since the end of last week
but today it all just suddenly let go as i was riding the bus – so i thought, what the heck, this feeling shitty stuff is very relative – just because i’m lacking some femtomoles of some neurotransmitter for couple days i should really start giving up and losing interest, walking around like living dead or something of the kind
mazhe2's Life List
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1. Get a PhD
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2. be happy
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3. Improve my Karma.
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4. be a better person
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5. finish my masters degree
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6. pass chemistry
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7. be more confident
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8. have no regrets
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9. don't lose my sense of wonder
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10. Understand Buddhism
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11. attain nirvana
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12. Find a balance between the things I want to do and the things I need to do
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13. improve my memory
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14. Never stop learning
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15. lose 15 pounds
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16. let go
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17. pass my driving test
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18. live simply
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19. be less materialistic
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20. see the beauty in everything
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21. learn german
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22. love myself
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23. own my own home
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24. get a cat
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25. Learn how to remember peoples' names
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26. Try out 43 Things
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27. read the whole Bible
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28. have better posture
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29. Have 3 kids
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30. drink wine
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Recent entries
apparently, after quizzing their asses off and demanding an overkill of stuff, i did not turn out to be such a horrible TA afterwards … student reviews were all above average, except that i have been accused of “abusing power” and “biased grading”, but what can you do – power changes people, muahahaha!
so i went to the gym the whole week and viola! what do i get?—> a more curvy figure! ... so my knees have become 20% thinner but what is above the knees has not thinned a bit, hahaha! ... eh, in the end i’ll get to that 100 lb – it is not hard really if i put my mind to it
i’ve contemplated on why not eating makes me feel so bad – the weird conclusion was that it is not that i’m just hungry and irritated – but it is because the feeling is comparable to near death feelings – anyone had any near death or surgery experiences? – i had a few – and i realize now that my body is very simply “afraid to die” if i don’t eat, which is very logical as strange as it may sound – so the depression, the gloom, the hopelessness that lack of food brings on is very much comparable to the same depression and gloom you feel when life’s slipping out of you – at least it works like this for me
