Living In God's Exquisite, Miraculous Sufficiency

I’ve been weighing myself nearly daily in the mornings after I go to the bathroom, naked. I’m down 12.4 lbs from my dr’s visit on 26-Jan-2012. That’s almost a pound a day of scale weight. Measured my bodyfat last night at it was about at 30%, so that’s down 3% in less than 2 weeks! Hopefully by Saturday, 2 days, when I do pics, measurements, weighs that it’ll be more than that.

Been only working out 3 days/week with HIIT workouts that last 41 min. Last week I did no walking. This week going to walk at least 2 times, if not 3 times for at least 45 min each time.

Been eating a lot of fibrous veggies and leafy greens, plenty of protein and yummy foods. I can’t believe my weight is actually down tonight as I pigged out last night on 2 bowls of New England Clam Chowder (homemade) and lots of Italian meatballs (homemade). Those dishes were so rich, but totally grain & starch free, no sugar.

I love that I can eat tons of veggies (non-starchy types) either raw or cooked.

My kids commented that they can see I’m releasing weight and getting smaller. Last night was the only night in the past 2 weeks that I ate until full. Sometimes I’m even a little hungry afterwards after eating, but I just wait and the feeling passes.

My foods are so delicious that it doesn’t even seem like I’m on any eating plan or diet. It’s actually not a diet per se, as it’s just a changed way of eating by grain & starch elimination and keeping low in sugar.

My daughter’s tummy is getting smaller and in less than 2 weeks. It’ll be interesting to see where we are by the time summer comes. It would be a miracle and so cool if both she and I could wear bikinis in public (at the pool).

I haven’t worn a bikini in public since I was like 5 yrs old, when it was cute to have a little belly. It’s sorta weird, but I truly believe I’ll be able to see my abs sometime soon, this year, by this summer sometime.

So very grateful for my best male friend for photoshopping my face onto some women whose bodies I think mine can look like when I get down to 15%. They have nice muscular legs and nice arms, feminine muscles.

And, I’m no longer worried whether I’ll be able to afford clothes or not as I know that I can go to Goodwill on Thursday’s, $1 days, and get plenty of clothes for practically nothing, as I get down to sizes I don’t have – 10, 8, 6. And, I look forward to one day soon, this year, giving away all my size 16, 14, 12 clothes when they no longer fit me because they are too big.

I have never lost weight or bodyfat THIS fast in such a short amount of time without fasting and doing some ridiculous juicing thing. I eat REAL foods that I get to chew, enjoy every single bite. It is soooo very cool.

Praise God!!! Hallelujah! God is soooo good.

I know. I said the “S” word! Thankfully my kids are not reading this.

I was tired and frustrated last night, a bit annoyed and not sure why. Went to bed when my kids did at 9 pm and hoping to get 9 hrs of sleep or close. A little before 11 pm, my texting went off with a “Good night”. Thought it was one of my best friends, and I wouldn’t have really minded.

However, it wasn’t him. It was MM. I had to relook at that. It did not end well with us, but I was sooooo glad and happy that he was out of my life.

I did not block his number from my cell, as I would have to pay an extra $5 to add blocking to my phone. Why would I do that if it’s just one number? He never actually even spent a cent on me as we both have the same cell provider.

I even crocheted a scarf for him. Ugggh. I should’ve crocheted it for my best male friend instead.

Anyway, MM was the one that actually decided that he didn’t want a relationship with me and I agreed. The way he ended it was so very uncool, but, oh well. I never cried over that and felt relieved, and glad.

It doesn’t matter if he’s wanting me back or what, because it’s NOT going to happen. I’m much, much clearer on the man thing, at least regarding him. I’m good with my life without him, and there is peace. Okay, well, maybe there isn’t peace in everything, like my daughter’s schooling, but overall, there is.

I’m just going to work on falling more in love with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and the right guy will come into my life. I’m going through Experiencing God again, as I did this when it first came out nearly 20 yrs ago. Some things are the same, but they have added way more good stuff.

One of the things that it said was that God can only give us His best. God doesn’t give us crap. He can’t. It’s only when crap enters our life that we choose it, and that isn’t from God. I know now that MM is basically crap for me. Maybe he’s a treasure for someone else, but not for me.

No thank you. I will be waiting for God’s very best and for His Divine intervention and plan as to how Mr. Right and I are going to meet. There is more than God needs to work on me to allow that to happen, and I’m supposing that my Mr. Right may need some work, too.

In the meantime, my kids need me, needing to get my health better and in order, make money to support the kids and I are some of the very basic things that need to be done this year. Plate is full.

In my single mom’s group for Christmas, we all got a free month’s worth of exterior car washes. Washing my car is pretty low on my list as there are more important things to do with my time, as well as money.

But, a couple weeks ago, the day before it expired, I signed up to get a pass for amonth to wash the outside of my car. So, the kids and I do this right before Single Mom’s, going through the car wash thing and the kids LOVE it!

It’s like a little amusement ride that lasts for 3 minutes. The kids squeal with laughter and joy, and it makes me happy that they are happy.

The inside of our car badly needs vacuuming, but at least the outside for a week looks great! I taped up with clear packing tape my semi-busted tail light so it doesn’t get snagged on those cloth finger things. Works great!

It’s so nice to have a clean outside car and not be filled with dust or caked in mud/dust. I have until the 26th of this month for free washes and am so thrilled for it.

Never thought having your car washed would be a luxury, but it is. I’m so grateful! Praise God!