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Joyfully & Easily Be Consistent At Gaining Strength In My Life (43) (read all 175 entries…)
Hardship

I think my husband really judged me in saying that I was wrong about hearing from God. He said he was 100 percent sure I didn’t hear from God. You know, for someone whom all he does is join in prayer when we eat and if I should pray more than 30 seconds, he tells me to hurry up, not that he can’t hear from God, but I doubt he can say for certain whether I heard from God or not correctly is not for him to say.

What good has come out of my hardships? My relationship with both my parents is SIGNIFICANTLY better, by tons. I got time to think about and change my views on my parents, to appreciate them. Had I continued on my course, I doubt I would have a better but more distant relationship with them me being not compassionate and not tolerant of how they are.

My family has gotten to see that I still have a great attitude, but it’s tempered with greater compassion and love towards other people, and far less judging. I have now become a wise spender, instead of foolishly spending.

Pain is often the instigator to change and I’ve had a lot of pain. Granted, there may be a small minority that needs no pain to change, but most need some level of pain and discomfort to move to something better. I’m no exception.

I got to move into a better neighborhood, safer neighbor and where my dad lives is pretty nice, so the kids can be outdoors playing without me worrying as much.

To be a much wiser spender and user of money, that’s HUGE! So what if you make a lot of money and spend poorly. You’ll lose it all, which I did. I manage my money now tons better. Yeah, the lesson was hard, but never were we homeless.

Those weren’t the only things, I used to think eating healthy cost a lot and that I needed all this STUFF to do it, but I found, you don’t need to and it makes life richer. I’ve learned to be more creative and resourceful. The stimulation of creativity and resourceful were born out of desperation. Is that bad?

Innovation has happened because someone somewhere was unhappy with the state of things and decided to make some changes. I learned how to really spot a good buy and when to have self control and do without.

Anyway, all he can see is I quit a high paying job for what? To be in poverty. What if through this I rise up and become the success I was destined to be and stay there, but had it been the other route, I could be like a Willie Nelson, broke and not in a good place because I didn’t learn how to manage money well, lived in fear, greed and pride, rather than a confidence in God to work not only through me, but others and other situations as I step out in faith, in actions to take hold of what He has for me?

Maybe it was God allowing my own poor choices and allowed me to go through spiritual cleaning (aka Spring Cleaning). You know, I don’t recall being late on my bills through this time and if I was, then I was given grace without any incurred penalties.

How much did I pay in interest for late payments or credit cards during this time? $0. Is that bad? Yes, everything has to be paid for in cash, so I learned to just wait upon God to bring it to me at a price that I could pay cash for or I just didn’t get it.

Not that I want to go through all of this stuff again, but I can see all the good it’s brought me, the kids. And, I had to learn to ask for what I want, to be persistent when I know the answer is ultimately yes, but it required me to push through.

My husband doesn’t see any of this. He doesn’t see that sometimes all we have is maybe $100-150 for food for the month to feed our family of 4 and how God always puts me in the right situation that I never even spend the whole amount we have budgeted and we’re still eating well.

I praise God in both my good and bad times. He is good all the time.



Joyfully and Easily Invite Prosperity On All Levels Into My Life Daily (43) (read all 146 entries…)
Legalism

Maybe there was a bit of legalism in me tithing in the past, as there was almost a fear that if I didn’t tithe, that God wouldn’t bless me. I did totally love to give, but maybe sometimes I was thinking that I needed to. Not sure if that makes sense or not.

Maybe through my hardships that God did not cause, but allowed due to other choices that were made by myself or others, He was teaching me that He just loves me, truly loves me. The tithing is for faith building, as well as other things for different people.

Maybe God used this time that I couldn’t give to show me of His great love for me and wanted me to re-evaluate that I did not have to be afraid, because that’s not what He wants.

I can tell you this, when I am able to give now, there is a completely different sense and humbleness of giving. This year, we were able to give red envelopes to all the kids in our family, including nieces and nephews. I literally cried and was so thankful to give.

We couldn’t give much like my siblings could, as it was only a few dollars each kid. That was given sacrificially, but I can see how much more God has blessed with in being a blessing to others.

My husband and I got to enjoy a meal almost for free at Roy’s, which the dinner was nearly $100 (before tip). All we paid for was the tip out of pocket and to be able to enjoy an expensive meal that almost cost us nothing. I felt like such a princess just for that evening on our anniversary.

In the past, before 2009, I thought nothing of having a meal that expensive. It wasn’t done often, but we did do it quite a few times a year.

When I’m able to get a little treat for us at the grocery store of something, or buy something that really isn’t need, but maybe frivolous, I feel so incredibly tickled.

It’s like a renewed sense of how I view money and it’s position in my life. God is my ultimate Provider. He blesses me, as well as those around and He lays on the hearts of others, Christian or not, to be generous. I am in great awe and don’t really understand how all this works out, but it does.

My trust is in God and I am very grateful to be able to tithe now.



Joyfully and Easily Invite Prosperity On All Levels Into My Life Daily (43) (read all 146 entries…)
Tithing

I hate to share this, but financially things were incredibly bad in 2009 that one of the elders from my church said to stop tithing because we weren’t even meeting the bare necessities of living. In the past, I tithed because I LOVED it. I loved seeing that I had the ability to choose to tithe because income was coming in and was amazed at how much the tithe & offering checks were.

I truly loved supporting different missionaries, ministries, helping other people out on top of that. But, when I had to give up my home, move in with my dad, and though I know how to trade stocks, you can’t do that without capital, it was dismal and even the little that I had, I hung onto for dear life and you can’t trade that way with scared money. It just doesn’t produce profits.

My husband asked me about LW and why when she went for a job, she just got it and then she would choose to live. She hadn’t worked for over 20 yrs outside the home and was able to get a job quickly and fairly easily. She has her bachelors in journalism, but hasn’t done anything with it for over 20 yrs. Granted, the jobs she got didn’t pay well, but she did get them.

So, I asked LW what was she doing? She said she tithed, spent time daily with God seeking Him, and asked God to help her see the things that are not good in her life and get rid of them so she could be closer to Him.

Now, did she get the jobs because she tithed? Am I in the financial situation because I was not tithing? Was God punishing me? We live in an age of grace now, and it’s not legalistic, but was God punishing me because I wasn’t tithing. After all, with what I am making, it’s really not enough to even be for 1 person to live independent much less a family of four.

As I looked back at all the years of me tithing, which is basically from 18 yrs old to 2009. From 2009, my kids gave well more than the tithe from their allowances and they did it on their own accord. I didn’t require them, and they cheerfully gave. Sometimes they gave all they earned, but usually in the realm of 20%+ of what they earned, well above the tithe.

Sunday I found out why they did that. They knew how important tithing is for me, a test to see my faith in God. They stood in the gap for me. I honestly wondered why it was easy for them to make money and now I can see possibly it may be due to their heart of giving to God. They didn’t give to get back, but God gave them many times over.

And, I believe all those years that I faithfully gave, God brought many people, situations to help us along these years of financial famine. My husband said that God would never cause this in my life, wanting us to live in poverty. But, through these hardships, I’ve learned to be far more compassionate, humble, merciful, way less judgmental, better steward of the finances he entrusts to us, resourceful, incredibly grateful.

It’s not that I wasn’t a generous or grateful person, nor forgiving, rather God wants those married with humility, true compassion for other’s plights, mercy, and to do it all with love.

I felt when I got this subcon job that I wanted to tithe, but my husband was against it, at least while we are making so little money and still living at my dad’s.

When I look back, it started in the 2009 timeframe when I stopped tithing that making money has been very, very difficult. Last Saturday, my husband said if I wanted to tithe, I could, even if he didn’t agree, he wasn’t going to deny me that. Today he said I should tithe if I really want and if I don’t, it’s not because he’s not allowing it, so I take that as I have my husband’s full blessing, though he doesn’t really understand.

What will God do? In Micah 3 says that we can test God in this and so I am going to. It also says in more than one area of the Bible and I’ll paraphrase is that sometimes what will be poured back to you is what you give out. If you give little, then little will be given back to you.

Now, I’m not giving the tithe so that I expect God to drop huge bags of money on my doorstep (although that would be really cool), but just seeing God pour His goodness in the ways He chooses that is best for us.

Seriously, I thought I was going to have to pay taxes and I end up having to pay none and getting a refund. It’s my biggest refund in a long time. However, the refund will go to pay down some of the taxes back from my divorce, which is more than my refund, but at least it is about 12-13% of it, which is something and I am happy.

My husband did point out that none of my siblings tithe and look how blessed they are. I said God still blesses people whether they love God or not. It’s not only Christians that He blesses. It’s just that many people who are incredibly blessed don’t give credit where it’s due, in my opinion. In fact, even being a Christian, sometimes pride creeps in still and I don’t give God the credit where I should.

I did notice that when I did tithe, looking back now, that my salary kept increasing as well as the ability to make a lot of money, the ease of it. Is it related to my tithing? I don’t know, but maybe the tithing represented a measure of my faith in the Lord to provide. I don’t know. My husband says it isn’t, but I disagree with him.

The areas I am focusing are on the tithe, which is 10%. Then a portion above that weekly (I’ll give on a monthly basis) will go towards Mercy ministries, helping those in need. And since I am rounding up to the nearest $5 or $0, those extra few bucks will go towards the building fund at my church.

My tithe a month was usually about what I am making now or a little less in my subcon job. So, basically, I am making about 10% of what I used to make. Sad, eh?

My tithe now percentagewise seems a lot to me. I feel like the widow’s mite, but I know it’s not the actual amount, but my faith to see the goodness of God.

Boy, I’m rambing. So, already God blessed in the tax area. My mom also gave me a check to cover some of our son’s Chess costs, which allowed me to pay the book deposit for him going into middle school next year.

I got to pay the bills I paid all fairly early. There are 3 more bills and 2 are scheduled on specific dates, so I can’t do this earlier.

My husband may see these all as that’s the way it should be, but I see these things as God blessing. I also see when I get discounts on things or gift cards, or people bless us with stuff or gestures or whatever, I see these things as the hand of God working through other people.

Boy, I can’t wait until we are making good money again and we can really help and bless others out financially!!! I am so excited for what God’s going to do!



file my 2013 taxes (read all 2 entries…)
Almost Done

I dreaded doing this and procrastinated doing it, which I should not have. My credit union promotes Turbo Tax and I know how much it costs to hire a good professional to do my taxes, but mine aren’t super complicated.

Anyway, with my subcon job, it’s counted as self-employment, so automatically this is more to do the taxes than personal taxes. Oh well. I went through with Turbo Tax and it’s costing me $85 for federal and $40 for state.

Maybe if I had done this 1.5 months ago, I could have found the right person for less, but I guess I have to suck this up. In the end, it wasn’t as bad as I thought. It took me about 3 hrs or so to do and Turbo Tax walks you through everything.

When our finances gets more complicated, I’ll hire someone, but since we haven’t had LOTS of income or anything like that in the past few years, it’s not too bad.

I just need to review what I did today, pay Turbo Tax and electronically file. I do not owe neither to Federal or State. Praise God!



file my 2013 taxes (read all 2 entries…)
Almost Done

I dreaded doing this and procrastinated doing it, which I should not have. My credit union promotes Turbo Tax and I know how much it costs to hire a good professional to do my taxes, but mine aren’t super complicated.

Anyway, with my subcon job, it’s counted as self-employment, so automatically this is more to do the taxes than personal taxes. Oh well. I went through with Turbo Tax and it’s costing me $85 for federal and $40 for state.

Maybe if I had done this 1.5 months ago, I could have found the right person for less, but I guess I have to suck this up. In the end, it wasn’t as bad as I thought. It took me about 3 hrs or so to do and Turbo Tax walks you through everything.

When our finances gets more complicated, I’ll hire someone, but since we haven’t had LOTS of income or anything like that in the past few years, it’s not too bad.

I just need to review what I did today, pay Turbo Tax and electronically file. I do not owe neither to Federal or State. Praise God!



Joyfully Go Through And Tap For All The EFT World Summit Audios I Have (read all 16 entries…)
2010 - Day 6 - Overcoming Limiting Beliefs

This audio is of Lindsay Kenny and truthfully, I cannot really tell you what it’s about. There is tapping involved in this audio. This day I was very sleep deprived, and part way while going through this audio, I felt incredibly tired and didn’t feel I could finish the audio, which I forced myself to. And I started developing a really bad headache and feeling physically awful, nauseated.

Drank some water and that seemed to help, but for the life of me, I have not a clue what she was saying. But, I did repeat the stuff as best as I could but I had a hard time focusing. Not sure if it was because I had hardly any sleep the night before and my body was just saying go to bed, or if energy was shifting or the combination.

Anyway, here is the audio – Overcoming Limiting Beliefs



Joyfully Go Through And Tap For All The EFT World Summit Audios I Have (read all 16 entries…)
2010 - Day 6 - Overcoming Limiting Beliefs

This audio is of Lindsay Kenny and truthfully, I cannot really tell you what it’s about. There is tapping involved in this audio. This day I was very sleep deprived, and part way while going through this audio, I felt incredibly tired and didn’t feel I could finish the audio, which I forced myself to. And I started developing a really bad headache and feeling physically awful, nauseated.

Drank some water and that seemed to help, but for the life of me, I have not a clue what she was saying. But, I did repeat the stuff as best as I could but I had a hard time focusing. Not sure if it was because I had hardly any sleep the night before and my body was just saying go to bed, or if energy was shifting or the combination.

Anyway, here is the audio – Overcoming Limiting Beliefs



Joyfully Go Through And Tap For All The EFT World Summit Audios I Have (read all 16 entries…)
Integration

Do you know how sometimes you listen to something and you find that the 2nd time you hear things you didn’t catch the first time? Well, this was the case. I’ve listened to Stacey Vornbrock’s stuff a number of times and I just never got it. BTW, she was my original EFT therapist (in person) way back in May 2001 that introduced me to EFT.

I was finishing up listening to an audio from 2010 from the EFT Summit that she was on. And though this is actually at least the 3rd time in my life I’ve listened to this audio, and I’ve actually heard of what I’m going to write about briefly but it never registered until now going thru something weird.

Actually, it has to do with my prior post on “Cravings”.

I found that after doing some EFT yesterday while the kids had early morning dental appointments, after we finished there and I dropped them off at school, I stopped by Bosa Donuts and got an apple fritter. I don’t think I’ve done that in a year or more. It was delicious.

Then, later that day, my husband had some mini Twix bars. I wanted 1 and he also let me have a very small bite later that evening of another bar. They’re like 2” long.

I just thought that was so weird these sweet cravings, yet, I have no desire for Dr. Pepper. Yesterday my husband got a Coke from BK and asked me to taste it because it didn’t taste right. I really didn’t want to, but did for his sake. I didn’t want to because I wasn’t in the mood and haven’t craved Coke for awhile and the thought of Dr. Pepper makes me feel ill right now.

Well, listening to Stacey, she said that when you sometimes have big energy shifts in your body, your body hasn’t really come to balance with removing those negative energies from your body yet. Doing an integration process is like giving your body instructions on how to process after getting “clean” is important, otherwise, you can sometimes find odd things happening as your body readjusts to the new changes.

So, that is a big thing I learned and when I feel some big shifts, I will do an Integration Process to help my body process all the stuff. Cool stuff.



rambling (43) (read all 217 entries…)
Lent

Though I’m not Catholic, I usually like to do or not do something during this time that I would not normally do that is good for me. There are 2 things -

1. Not drink any Dr. Pepper
2. Do a lot more EFT, preferably go thru at least 40 EFT audios and do tapping when there is tapping involved.

So far, successful. I have to put down the EFT stuff I’ve done, but just haven’t had the time or if I have, haven’t remembered.



Speak up about poor service (read all 2 entries…)
Negative Energy

I don’t want to focus on this, so will put this on hold.



Speak up about poor service (read all 2 entries…)
Time-Tec

I saw this on Sweetyblue’s list of stuff and thought of the incredibly poor service I got from Time-Tec this past week. I spoke up and the more I spoke up, the more they bashed me. They typically have really good reviews from others, but my experience this time has been totally unacceptable.

I’ve used them 3 times in total, but this is the last time. I did post negative feedback for them on their FB, which they ended up deleting. I posted a negative recommendation on my FB page, which I have more than 1200 people on there. To what extent whom saw, I know at least 2 people saw and read and provided me feedback and at least they won’t be using them either.

I posted a couple negative reviews on Yelp of them. Because of their incompetence, I’ll probably have to get my heartrate monitor’s battery replaced much sooner than the 2 yrs I normally do because of how they incorrectly packaged and shipped my unit back to me. Very unprofessional.

Next time I will go directly to Polar to get it serviced, although Time-Tec is an authorized service center, they did a shoddy job. Another person I know told me she gave them negative feedback on FB and they subsequently deleted her comments. Apparently they only retain comments that serve them.

They went to refute every negative thing they actually did and say they didn’t. Honestly, I just wanted to get my Polar serviced and get it back so I could do my workouts. I accepted the high cost of the service, but did not get the service I was supposed to receive.

So not to repeat everything I already wrote about, you can see my Yelp Review of Time-Tec. They are located in Los Angeles.

If you want to provide any comments to them about treating people poorly and handling my situation awfully, feel free. I provided the link for Yelp. They have 2 FB pages FB Time-Tec and FB Polar Time-Tec.

They made a series of mistakes and are unwilling to own up to any of them and continually blame me, as well as speak bad of me to other people who are making the comments. Well, thankfully I don’t have a reputation for lying.

Most of my Yelp comments and feedback I provide about most companies are positive. There are only a minor few companies unwilling to provide good service and products, but most are willing to take the high road.



Joyfully Celebrate Love (read all 249 entries…)
Time-Tec

Okay, my husband is telling me to just drop the Time-Tec stuff, so I will. He sees how much this is upsetting me and he wants me to just change my energy. I must pray and tap (I’m thinking about using a mallet right now to tap, LOL).



admit what I really want (read all 57 entries…)
Takamine

Last summer we went through so much to get my husband’s defectively manufactured Takamine guitar replaced. Though it was a thorough pain in the butt to the nth degree, in the end, Takamine made sure we got a good guitar, shipped it perfectly, and we have been very happy.

Eventually, I may even get a Takamine for my husband that he would love. We like Taylor better, but Takamine does make a good guitar.

I want to be treated well and I do expect it, especially when dealing with businesses. I am learning to do that in relationships, too.



admit what I really want (read all 57 entries…)
Shipping and an Apology

Sometimes I have things go awry with some place I’ve purchased something or did business with. Customer service goes a long way. With excellent customer service, if people can afford it, they will keep coming back.

I have been with Verizon for nearly 20 yrs and though sometimes I hear people hate them, most of the time I get great service from them. I can remember a handful of times it wasn’t, but I gave them another chance and they always made things right.

No company is perfect and I like to give them the benefit of the doubt.

FB can be a great tool or not. I put a complaint at Time-Tec on their FB page of how unhappy I was with how they dealt with me and the details of what they did.

If you’re really wanting to know my complaint, the details are in my reviews on Yelp: Yelp Reviews

I really am not a hard customer, but I do believe in being fair and treated well, with professionalism and courtesy. Even if you are incompetent, if you treat me well, that can win me over.

Yes, I know I flamed them on their FB page and on my FB. And they did retaliate on FB as well as when they sent my heartrate monitor back in a crappy way.

I want my $17.71 + $1.11, so $18.82 back and a formal apology.

They deleted my FB posts on their FB page as well as their not very nice responses to me calling me just short of a liar (they never used the words liar). And when someone who saw my posts on my FB page confronted them on it on their FB page, they also bad mouthed me and deleted their posts from their FB page. Nice, eh?

I guess when you are a business and you “own” that page, you can delete all comments you don’t like and only keep the ones that you like.

Thankful for Yelp and other independent areas where I can post and not get it deleted.



Joyfully Share 43 Christian Worship Songs (read all 6 entries…)
#5 - Holding Nothing Back - Ryan Stevenson

This is by Ryan Stevenson and I like this song, too.
Holding Nothing Back

I think a lot of times I don’t give it my all in the past 7 years and I have held a lot back. Granted, there are some things we should hold back, like raging anger, being critical and unforgiving, but I’m talking about holding back on the good stuff, the stuff that drives us to be better people.



Joyfully Share 43 Christian Worship Songs (read all 6 entries…)
#4 - He Is With Us and City of God - Love & The Outcome

I love these 2 songs He Is With Us and City of God



Joyfully Go Through And Tap For All The EFT World Summit Audios I Have (read all 16 entries…)
Cravings

I’m having some cravings like for chips and sweets, but not Dr. Pepper. I’m not sure what happened, but I started to feel like I wanted chocolate last night. I know I was tapping on relationships, but nothing or no one in particular.

Today I woke up with a headache and it’s lasted all day long and my blood pressure has been high all day. I’m gathering that the tapping I did yesterday must have uncovered another layer of mess that needs resolving and right now I just want to eat. Which, obviously, isn’t good.

As I think about this more, though, I remember, it was my birthday like in 2007, when I first retired from engineering and that was one of the worst birthdays ever. My daughter was 6.5 yrs old and I was crying a lot. At the time, I didn’t know my ex-husband, husband at the time, was having an affair.

I remember my daughter drawing me this picture and writing that she wanted me to be happy for my birthday and she was very sorry that I was feeling so sad. I’m guessing I have unresolved trauma from that timeframe, as I was also tapping generically on trauma earlier this day.

My husband was laughing at me when I said I wanted some chips and opened a bag that I had given him. He commented that the EFT was real effective, eh? Well, I’m uncovering some junk and sometimes before things get better, they may appear like they’re getting worse. I know he wasn’t trying to be mean, but he is not really a believer in the EFT and that is all right. He doesn’t have to do it.

As for now, my head hurts so much.



Joyfully Go Through And Tap For All The EFT World Summit Audios I Have (read all 16 entries…)
2009 - Day 8 - Using EFT to Determine Your Life Values

I’m only part way with this as I started listening to this while waiting at the eye doctor’s and listened to it on the way home, partially. So far, there were no tapping sequences and I think I am about 1/2 way through.

Life Values



Joyfully Go Through And Tap For All The EFT World Summit Audios I Have (read all 16 entries…)
2009 - Day 6 - Building A Thriving Relationship

This is by Loretta Sparks and I think I did this last night but forgot to list this. Anyway, I think from last night, I have begun to have cravings again, so I’m thinking there is something with relationships whether it is my husband, or one of my ex-husbands, or my kids, or my siblings, or my mom or my dad, or someone or someones, I don’t know.

Building A Thriving Relationship

I don’t remember if there were any specific tapping sequences, but I periodically just tapped along with whatever she was saying.



Joyfully Go Through And Tap For All The EFT World Summit Audios I Have (read all 16 entries…)
2009 - Bonus - Resolving Trauma

This is by Brent Baum. While on my way to my annual eye doctor exam, I listened to this in the car. My husband was home waiting for an interview call that never happened and the kids were with him. It felt good to be alone for a bit and just listen to EFT.

Resolving Trauma.

There was no actual tapping sequence in this audio and it’s nearly an hour long, I think. But, I did listen to the whole thing and tapped along with what he said.

I think this uncovered some stuff in me because I’m noticing I’m having food cravings.



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