I'm doing 29 things
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9 months ago
New Year’s 2009: success! It was weird, though, not ambrosial like I thought. Yeasty and sweet. But awesome! ... maybe do it again for graduation?
meijse's Life List
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1. come out of the closet
3 entries . 29 cheers292 people -
2. Become a vegetarian
1 entry . 3 cheers1,577 people -
3. beat dermatillomania
1 entry106 people -
4. Get a tattoo
2 entries . 2 cheers20,305 people -
5. become more artistic
2 entries . 4 cheers22 people -
6. stop biting my nails
2 entries . 2 cheers7,055 people -
7. Have my first kiss
1 entry . 3 cheers1,242 people -
8. live without antidepressants
2 entries4 people -
9. choose a university
1 entry3 people -
10. get a bachelor's degree
3 entries . 2 cheers434 people -
11. donate blood regularly
2 entries . 2 cheers292 people -
12. listen to the top 20 albums on the rolling stone 500 list
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13. experience my gender as truly fluid
1 entry . 3 cheers5 people -
14. eat real lunches
2 entries . 4 cheers1 person -
15. get dreadlocks
5 cheers411 people -
16. learn german
1 entry . 2 cheers4,536 people -
17. drink more tea
1 entry . 3 cheers339 people -
18. Learn Spanish
1 entry . 2 cheers15,504 people -
19. be less sensitive
1 entry . 1 cheer242 people -
20. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
2 entries . 1 cheer7,169 people -
21. genderfuck
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22. do 50 pushups
1 entry . 1 cheer122 people -
23. Do 100 situps
1 entry77 people -
24. learn mi'kmaq
1 entry3 people -
25. explore the marsh
1 entry . 1 cheer1 person -
26. go on a vision quest
1 cheer51 people -
27. go without mirrors for a month
1 entry . 2 cheers1 person -
28. do voice-over work
1 entry . 2 cheers22 people -
29. drink blood
2 entries74 people
How I did it
It made me 
How I did it: It simply took a visit to the library. My math class is so so boring, so I read snippets of The Old Man and the Sea when the teacher wasn't looking.I finished it today. I'm not sure what to think of it yet. I wasn't expecting it to be so simplistic - there are probably deep meanings I haven't thought about yet.Overall I really liked it, and I'm going to find The Sun Also Rises and try it again. =) Read how I did it…
It made me
feel smart
How I did it: In my spare time & over the summer, I looked up math, mostly on the internet. I asked my math teacher what she taught in grade 12 and went from there. I'm still going to benefit from the course, but I feel happy with a basic grounding in conics, limits, rates of change, trig identities ... wheee! 99%, here I come. Read how I did it…
Recent entries
Embodiment
10 months ago
So I have this beautiful journal and some nice ideas. I want to base it off Traci Bunker, a.k.a. bestill .
beautiful!
I bought a jar of india ink and some brushes. going for the layered look, but also want to keep it clean and bright. lots of yellow and blue.
There’s a project called Embodiment where you journal every day for a year. eep!
well well well
13 months ago
I’m beginning my third month on Cipralex. The quest to convince my doctor and parents failed, obviously.
It is actually helping. It’s a lot easier to have conversations, to speak my mind, be criticized without taking it to heart, walk around in public … it’s great.
Days when I forget to take it are scary: just a few hours after I’m supposed to have taken it, it’s like I’ve landed right in the middle of a depressive spell. My anxiety skyrockets, my compulsions come back, I become depressed and reclusive. I honestly cannot believe how I lived 12 months like that.
Getting to therapy is also pretty difficult: driving there is an hour, and she’s open only on school days – I can’t miss a day every 2 weeks, not in senior year, so I can’t get therapy as often as I’d like.
SUMMARY: Meds are okay. They are really awesomely helping me out, but I’d still rather be off them and be whole, happy, and functioning without chemicals. I will be someday.
