melanie18

I met a guy a few years back, because we worked together. As we got to know each other we stared hangong out, doing couple things like going to the beach together… I met his family and all his friends. But as the summer came to the end and I went back to school and he went to University we lost contact.
Then 2 years later, I added him on myspace, just to be friendly.. and we got to talking and began hanging out. We hung out for like 2 weeks beforfe he moved home for the summer. In that 2 weeks we hung out every day, going to resturants, sleeping over to each others house, cuddling and whatever. We did have sex once, we were drunk and well you know how it goes…
He goes home for the summer not to long after that, and we both said that we are still friends… he said hes looking for a no strings attached thing? So while hes home wwe stay in contact through texting and a few emails. He didnt have the net at his house.
So when the summer is over we hung out again, I stayed over to his place and we cuddeled… made out a lil… and he told me that he did date another girl over the summer who he slept with, which I was fine with because I had my fling too…
But I may want something more with this guy. And hes soo untamable. Im used to guys throwing themselves at me, telling me Im beautiful and they want to be with me and whatever… and he dosent.
Im not shure if I like him or the fact that hes a challenge. Either way I dont want to get hurt. We see each other once a week… its fun and I can talk to him about anyting, and Ive tried talking to him about this… But its hard… I dont want to scare him off!!
HELP!!!

well heres what I did so far sense my last entry…
-started saving all my change…$16.37 this week
-signed up for a bunch of those sirveys you take online. I already got a cheque for $5.00 Wahoo… Hey every penney counts!
-and Ive stopped eating out at fast food places
-and my boyfriend and me rent/download movies instead of going to the theater… which saves like $21.56 per night.
And all that money that I manage to ave goes directly into my high intrest savings account… I just have to remember to keep my paws off! I want a house, car and a vacation when I graduate college!! 10 months!! Woot Woot!

Well about 7 months ago I found the perfect guy. He is so incredible, words cant describe how I feel about him. But he is 25 and I am 18, and I find it hard to balance it all out. He is more mature and is some what ready to settle down, and Im just not shure we’re on the same level. I know I love him and I will marry him someday. But sometimes its hard when I have College (whickh Ill be finished in 10 months) and his schedule. He works all night shifts so its hard to see him. Mabye twice a week, and its not enough, I miss him so much sometimes. I find myself spending time with other guy friends of mine. Mabye its a substitute, mabye its a sign we arent ment to be. But I know I want him. I just hope that he is patient wnough to let me go and be stupid and come to my senses and grow up. But its messing with my head, cause I have spent timw with an ex, NO CHEATING or anything, but hes in my head, my BF is in my head, and its alot do deal with when Im in school, trying to focus on my education… ERG!

But all in all I know that a relationship takes alot of work… I always thought that was only true if you argued with each other… But me and him never argue. The only real work I have to do is within my self…