melanie carter

I am just so sad. I went to bed sad, I woke up sad. As usual, my ex came by to take my daughter to school this morning. He took one look at me and asked “Is something wrong?” I looked down to the floor and shook my head No. If only he knew. We make little to no eye contact and only have small conversations about our daughter. It’s best this way. Otherwise we’ll politely exchange an occasional “hi and “bye”. Of course I knew this wouldn’t be easy, but this really sucks!! I’ll be okay I guess.

Can’t get it out of my head. It goes something like:

I don’t, wanna…
love you, don’t wanna…
need you, just wanna..
leave YOUUUUU…..I just want it to be OVERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

I think there was too much pressure on both of us to try and maintain a relationship. We expected too many things from each other and when we didn’t get it, we both got mad at each other which always escalated into an argument. We wanted so bad for things to work out with each other, but can’t seem to make any leadway. Now, there is no pressure to maintain a relationship. I’m done trying and I feel much calmer and at peace now. The storm is over, now all I have to do is GET OVER HIM!!