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i want to practice taichi and feel while doing so, i have larnt how to do the steps. i want to be able to forget myself thoughtout not get the feel then lose it. i want to feel.

its beter to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. hmm. yah. dont know how i feel abt abt that. its better to imagine wat u imagine wat u think something beautiful might be like. but to actually have that. to feel it. to realise it. and to give your all to it. and then have it all taken away from you. nonsense all of it. does anything really make any sense at all. is there a reason for anything at all.

not to get caught up too much in the dreaming. to not want wat others have. or wat i think makes them happy because we never really know who anyone is le t alone wat makes then trully happy. they are just an impresson of wat we think they are. is anything real? wat if i were to wakeup tomorrow only to realise that its all been make believe. that nothing really is as it . or worse that there is no me. no u. no nothing. its all been a big fucking joke.why do we all want the sane thing. isnt the thing we admire most about other people is not that they r like us but that they r diffrent. we are all different. why do we not want to accept this. but instead make guidlines to try and mold us into the same thing when every bloody day we go on and on and on about being unique. we know we are. we just all want to be unique in the same way is the problem. lets embrace our diffrence my ass. we embrace our diffrences only when those diffrence we can be comfortsble with them.