melodicgirl

I have worked in bars forever and recently had a heartbreak at a job i was at for almost 5 yrs.I am not a dime a dozen Not expendable or replaceable.Fukin assholes i wish i could burn the place down!!
Then my part time job became full time and i love the environment.I have my old regulars visit me and i realize how much of a difference a bartender/waitress can make in peoples lives.
Finding backstabbers and shitty ass managers at bars/restaurants is a common thing.
Its not an easy job either.
I want to have my own bar and change the typical hangout in this town!Keep Austin weird???bull—t! Its a cool ass town but,the same shit everywhere…same places same people…
I want this so bad.i have no idea where to start?I have dreamed of what it will look like.My research starts now!!
Bartending is a career!but, wheres my future??will i ever have health insurance?Just getting eye exams and paying the bills is a hard as streach!How do people get out of this wait--industry-What becomes of them as the yrs go by?i need something!!Now….
I do love to bartend! I meet alot of different people and i get to be myself.I want to experience all that i love at this job to another level..not to another job and to another..

the show was at the back room.Line out the door and around the building.headliners -did not care..the show was the shit.big ass pit and yeah my friends were everywhere.I felt alive and i was very happy.happier than i have been in a very long time.Their sound was tight and hard core exactly what i wanted in a metal show.Then i got this t-shirt and saw the band go around the bar.I was in a staring daze was this happening?I ran to my boyfriend and we waited to meet the band!!got t-s signed and my boyfriend got to meet dez one of his idols..It was a great show and it is so hard to find bands that are not all fuking up a label or emo punk kids asses all day long!No mtv fuks and no gay as music. why isnt the world understanding that its turning all into the same shit,,every other band is a fuking ripoff of the next and to look to something different??cuz it sells?how can that really make them happy??It will just be gone by next year

Back in high school life was fun!My body has basically stayed the same for years. oww ..about 26 i still could fit into the same clothes.Now 29 i get sad and frustrated with how my life turned out.People cannot believe my age and say i look great.That is nice but everyone has their own tics.I want to firm firm firm…for myself..
I got a membership last month.I did yoga and tai chi classes.Getting out of the house and motivated is hard!Now my boyfriend is helping me lift weights because i did not get any results with the classes..And ow god my body hurts but its good.?
I cant wait till next month!! And yeah it hurts ALOt..but,I keep looking at these young 18yr old women and they will not be able to tell the difference when they look at me! Thats motivation enough..Plus,I am getting more confident and the pain is temporary but, it does make me feel alive. and yeah beautiful like i want to be..I just got to keep my head up.I can do this…