micepop

Don’t really know what this will solve but hey, whatever! I’ll be moving to another state some time this week. I’m packing up a few things and bussing it out of here (It’s a 10 hour bus ride!). My game boy has since broken, I smashed my computer (using mums laptop) so all I’ll be packing are my xbox (no tv though..), some clothes and a toothbrush and $200…

Guess that’s about as much as I know how to do.. Hopefully thing will go better for me in a bigger city. :)

It’s kind of depressing though, but at the same time it’s a little like “hey, a new city and clean slate!”

Well see.

14 hours all up a day on my computer (minimum) and 10 of those hours are on the Internet. What do I do on the Internet all day?

- Forums (Six individual forums I frequent, plus a whole lot more I might participate in randomly from time to time)

- IRC (I'm on IRC right now in about 4 different channels, some times I'll be actively participating in more then 10 channels at once.)

- Social Networking Sites (The nerdy ones) - Digg, Lxer, and Slashdot are the main ones I visit. Reddit occasionally.

- Blogs/Websites (More than I care to list)

So yeah, this goal is more because I have no life and I figure cutting back on Internet will help. For now my goal is to cut it down to 3 hours a day.

And still no life! Lame, I know. I don’t think it’s impossible since I had a life once, just really, really hard. I don’t even know where to begin. Because I’ve been in solitude for so long I’ve noticed some pretty dramatic changes in how I look, feel and think.

At first I thought I was doing OK, but after looking at my self on my webcam I noticed I look “wrong”. I talk to my self pretty frequently now which I guess is kind of weird, and I’ve taken to writing long conversations back and forth with my self which I guess is also pretty weird. Basically, in all this time I’ve spent by my self I’ve become one big weirdo. I guess I have the internet to thank for keeping me semi-sane. (Forums, IRC, blogs, etc)

Don’t really know how I’m going to go about this whole getting a life thing anymore, I’ve been thinking about smashing my computer, game consoles, TV, etc just so I have to force my self to do something else. But last time I didn’t have access to any of those things I just slept the whole time so it seems kind of pointless.

I am fucked.