Well, I found out I have a few mental illnesses, including but (likely) not limited to: Body Dysmorphic Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, Bipolar Disorder and Avoidant Personality Disorder.
Which pretty much explains everything.. Including the reason I though setting off a petrol engine in my room while putting a wet towel in front of the door and drinking myself into a stupor was a good idea.
Fuck it, I give up on this shit.
Don’t really know what this will solve but hey, whatever! I’ll be moving to another state some time this week. I’m packing up a few things and bussing it out of here (It’s a 10 hour bus ride!). My game boy has since broken, I smashed my computer (using mums laptop) so all I’ll be packing are my xbox (no tv though..), some clothes and a toothbrush and $200…
Guess that’s about as much as I know how to do.. Hopefully thing will go better for me in a bigger city. :)
It’s kind of depressing though, but at the same time it’s a little like “hey, a new city and clean slate!”
14 hours all up a day on my computer (minimum) and 10 of those hours are on the Internet. What do I do on the Internet all day?
- Forums (Six individual forums I frequent, plus a whole lot more I might participate in randomly from time to time)
- IRC (I'm on IRC right now in about 4 different channels, some times I'll be actively participating in more then 10 channels at once.)
- Social Networking Sites (The nerdy ones) - Digg, Lxer, and Slashdot are the main ones I visit. Reddit occasionally.
- Blogs/Websites (More than I care to list)
So yeah, this goal is more because I have no life and I figure cutting back on Internet will help. For now my goal is to cut it down to 3 hours a day.