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  1. 1. mend my broken heart
    26 entries . 2 cheers
    173 people
  2. 2. get over my ex
    17 entries . 1 cheer
    1,045 people
  3. 3. forgive
    3 entries . 2 cheers
    820 people
  4. 4. fall out of love
    4 entries
    240 people
  5. 5. stop hurting
    3 entries
    64 people
  6. 6. forget the past
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    315 people
  7. 7. have the courage to start over
    2 cheers
    45 people
  8. 8. Never get hurt in love again
    1 entry
    47 people
  9. 9. Love without fear
    1 entry
    1,843 people
  10. 10. be happy
    2 entries
    21,831 people
  11. 11. travel the world
    1 cheer
    18,549 people
  12. 12. write a book
    2 entries . 1 cheer
    26,090 people
  13. 13. know the meaning of life
    1 entry
    54 people
  14. 14. find myself
    1,794 people
  15. 15. Continue my education
    1 entry
    79 people
  16. 16. learn a new language
    1 cheer
    1,648 people
  17. 17. Get toned
    279 people
  18. 18. become a counselor
    1 entry
    63 people
  19. 19. be independent
    839 people
  20. 20. do yoga
    1,644 people
  21. 21. have more money
    1 entry
    278 people
  22. 22. make a difference
    1 cheer
    6,784 people
  23. 23. help people
    1,354 people
  24. 24. become enlightened
    394 people
  25. 25. Find peace.
    335 people
  26. 26. live in the moment
    1,928 people
  27. 27. Get a PhD
    2,792 people
  28. 28. live in Europe
    1,192 people
  29. 29. be content
    627 people
  30. 30. be more patient
    2,905 people
  31. 31. take more chances
    1 entry
    343 people
  32. 32. see the northern lights
    1 cheer
    16,901 people
  33. 33. eat a pizza in italy
    1 cheer
    114 people
  34. 34. learn to dance hip hop
    69 people

How I did it
How to live in another country
It took me
6 months
It made me
Wiser


How to decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
It took me
3 weeks
It made me
Fulfilled


How to be more optimistic
It took me
2 months
It made me
Empowered


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Recent entries
get over my ex (read all 17 entries…)
Hello, May 6 months ago

Months go by, life is happening all around, doing things, talking to people, concentrating on myself, working, exercising, enjoying the sun when it comes out, enjoying my books… Same old, same new. I think of him very often, more than I’d like to. Recently it has been on a consistent basis, don’t know why. The pictures of the past keep running through my head over & over; I wonder where he is & what he’s doing. I wonder if we’ll ever talk or see each other again or we’ll be like phantoms, residing on the same Earth & yet unknown to each other. It’s been 9 months & nothing’s changed in me thinking about him or missing him. I continue to love him just like before. Sometimes I think of his face, his hands, his hair & how it all felt; all our laughs & arguments. Moments of anguish are intertwined with moments of bliss. My inner self is more stable now, but I do cry at times. Lately it’s been more frequent. Sadness creeps out. Regret that things went the way they did, although I realize that everything has its own wise purpose. I’m trying to concentrate on the present moment because this is all I have. There’s no more past. The past is just the story, a compilation of pictures, thoughts & emotions. The future is in the making. Right now I have Now. And what’s in the Now? Lots of good stuff. I’m trying to enjoy them all and smile.



Mend my broken heart (read all 26 entries…)
Hello, May 6 months ago

Months go by, life is happening all around, doing things, talking to people, concentrating on myself, working, exercising, enjoying the sun when it comes out, enjoying my books… Same old, same new. I think of him very often, more than I’d like to. Recently it has been on a consistent basis, don’t know why. The pictures of the past keep running through my head over & over; I wonder where he is & what he’s doing. I wonder if we’ll ever talk or see each other again or we’ll be like phantoms, residing on the same Earth & yet unknown to each other. It’s been 9 months & nothing’s changed in me thinking about him or missing him. I continue to love him just like before. Sometimes I think of his face, his hands, his hair & how it all felt; all our laughs & arguments. Moments of anguish are intertwined with moments of bliss. My inner self is more stable now, but I do cry at times. Lately it’s been more frequent. Sadness creeps out. Regret that things went the way they did, although I realize that everything has its own wise purpose. I’m trying to concentrate on the present moment because this is all I have. There’s no more past. The past is just the story, a compilation of pictures, thoughts & emotions. The future is in the making. Right now I have Now. And what’s in the Now? Lots of good stuff. I’m trying to enjoy them all and smile.



get over my ex (read all 17 entries…)
8 months... 7 months ago

Yesterday it’s been 8 months. No different from 7 or 6 or 5… It helps to have no contact though. Since the time he sent me a weird email a month ago or so, he disappeared again & I let it be. Of course I’m thinking of him every day, but I haven’t seen him in my dreams lately. Nothing’s different really, same old crap, same old emotions & thoughts. Just getting used to live with them on the daily basis. A guy friend in other state who I met before I moved where I’m now is on the phone with me almost every day for a long time & it helps me to take my mind off of unnecessary thoughts. Plus my work is busy & intense. Plus I joined the gym & now I exercise every single day. It’s good. It’s great. I mean, outside it is. Inside I’m still broken & shattered, I’m still hurting.
I miss him & love him the same way. Nothing’s changing in time. Just getting more numb & his image moves further & further away from me. Sometimes I see someone who looks similar to him from afar & my heart irks. Then it subsides & I continue what I was doing. I just am. Living my life.
I still love you. The same way.



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