misslissy21

It’s a complete waste of time when I have important things to do. Sometimes the more stressful or time-consuming a project is, the more i procrastinate. It’s the most stress-inducing and painfully annoying habit. I can’t even imagine how much better I would do in school if i procrastinated a little less.

When my best friend Josh died it never really occured to me that he was gone. It happened almost 10 months ago and I still cry almost every night. I never had the proper closure. I went to the funeral, I went to his house that day to be with his family, I saw him burried, but none of it was enough. I miss him more than anything and I would give anything just to hug him one last time. Ever since the day he was buried I’ve been afraid to visit and bring flowers. I miss talking to him, but I feel that if i went I wouldn’t know what to do. It would have been his 15th birthday today. Maybe I’ll go and bring him flowers.

I want to see things in my life; to know things. To go on a road trip with no idea where your headed must be the ultimate freedom. When youre on the road, there’s nothing stopping you, there’s nothing ahead of you, the bad things are behind you. There is no pressure. Just do it your own way. That’s what I want.