For some reason this is far more complicated than I had imagined it would be later on in life. I get on these kicks where I worry too much and get all melodramatic – “crank up Radiohead”, “skp work and think about how troubled your life is”....come on Michelle, pull your socks up for fucks sake! Having trouble finding out what you like to do is not exactly the most troubling problem in the broad spectrum of things. I think it is time that I, like many others just choose to get over myself…
Dec 07, 2005, 07:41AM PST | 0 comments
i have had many conversations about why people really want to do this, questioning whether or not it is even real or just some artificial construction of society to make us feel separate from other animals. i don’t know, but it feels amazing. it has only happened to me once. if i could say that it had happened more than that, i would question whether or not it was real. it is rare and strange and the symptoms are always the same for everyone. even if it isn’t real, i would still be happy to exist in it. it is scary what can happen to you if you are looking for it though. i am ashamed to admit that in my most lonely moments, i have searched 43 things for interesting people…..that should be on my list of 43 things – stop looking for the love of your life on 43 things. so embarrassed…Sitting around and waiting for love is ridiculous and something i will constantly try to avoid because there are a lot of other things going on in the world.
Dec 02, 2005, 07:38AM PST | 0 comments
I am not sure when this started happening, but I am the one who more often than not has to get up in the morning, takes care of everybodies bills, finds things like lost keys for people blah blah blah. I am happy to care for people, but somewhere along the line I stopped caring about myself. This is my fault and my fault only. It is strange to think that I have stopped a lot of the fun ni my life because of this imaginary sense of responsibility, but then again, somebody has to do it. somebody has to pay the internet bill so we can keep writing on our blogs, myspace, friendster etc…Or maybe there is something in that too.
Nov 30, 2005, 05:26AM PST | 1 comment
I'm doing 43 things
