missxMURDERed

is it sad and pathetic that a 14 year old knows what surge she wants?

i want my thighs done, my butt done and my chin done.

but mostly my butt and thighs.

i want a debit card, damnit.

but i’m not.

my bmi is healthy…. people tell me i’m skinny as hell…

but all i see when i look in the mirror is my flaws.

like my big butt. or my thighs.

or my growing chin.

the only time i feel great about myself is that one period of the day when i’m bare foot in spandex and a cami with my hair pulled back dancing.

when i’m dancing, i feel amazing about myself, like i could do anything and that i’m the best person on earth [[haha. vain, ik]] and that i’m how i want to be. i love that feeling.

if only i could filter some of that into the rest of the day.