mleal

hmm…i have a feeling i’m never going to accomplish this, :b but i might as well put this down and see what happens!
1.english~ check
2. japanese~ i’m about as proficient as a 1 and a half year old :p ..hm..what’s something i can say >..< but i’m taking it at school so might as well! hm…i can say… “zhe shi wo de shu’ hahah. oh, and another example showing how little i reall know: ‘zhe ge ren hen xiong’ :b
haha
4.korean!~ i have no idea, but for some reason i have this overwhelming desire to learn it :p
5. latin~ so very cool i think <sub>3~
6. french</sub> i’ll take chinese 3+4 and french 1+2 next year
7. russian~ i’ll try T^T haha
8. portuguese~ my bestesteset friend is from brazil, haha she speaks native portuguese :D :D :D
9. german~ xD why not? hahah
10. romanian! haha why not?~ :D

hmm…i have a feeling i’m never going to accomplish this, :b but i might as well put this down and see what happens!
1.english~ check
2. japanese~ i’m about as proficient as a 1 and a half year old :p ..hm..what’s something i can say >...> why not? hahah
10. romanian! haha why not?~ :D

so i have been neglecting this for obviously quite a long time. i though, ‘hey who cares! whatever :p’ but as i read my past EIGHT :b entries i smiled and laughed and had a sudden memory of that day and it’s very bizarre.
so i want more, i want to remember each day and be able to look back on it one day.
so for the past 2 or 3 months, i suppose nothing happened, and yet something so big did happen causing my life’s goals to completely change. it hurts, admitting the thing that is now not going to happen anymore, so i won’t. i think i’ll know what i’m talking about a year from now.
I’m back in school, and i’m actually very miserable :b i hate to admit it but i really hate school. i hate waking up in the early morning and being bored the entire day and then come home and just not do any of my homework until the last minute :p which by the way…i need to do my history homework right now :p
i’ve been enjoying learning japanese by myself with my illegally downloaded genki japan textbook/workbooks :b
i love getting money and just buying whatever movie the movie store has! although they’re only japanese :p hahah
an old friend that moved away 6 or 7 months got in contact with me, and it was so…touching? that’s a real good example of a ‘lack of a better word’. did that make sense? haha
i got switched out of a class i liked and now am in a class i hate and know no one, but today this girl asked me how i was doing and whether i like this class or not, and for some reason that really made me feel 110% happier! haha, and when i was walking to the bus, this one girl who i talk to, who’s in 2 of my classes, smiled at me and waved as we were passing, but what did i feel? haha i was thinking ‘oh god, two people did something nice…is there something on my face? in my teeth? is my hair weird? my shirt on backwards…oh god’.
?__? no idea.
i’ve discovered shiina ringo, which i love more than anything! (well..besides malice mizer :p)
i had to go to a debate tournament last saturday.
5:30 in the morning to 6:00 in the evening.
i get sick whenever i wake up at an early new time, so i couldn’t talk to my friend in fear of getting sick, which i felt as if i was about to puke at any time. add to the fact i was nervous…i had to read my speech infront of all these people…i shake even now!
i ended up reading a varsity speech that a varsity girl wrote and let me borrow, so i ended up getting a 5 instead of a 3 :p haha so i felt better that at least i knew my speech was good.
so after that i got to relax for 2 hours, then get lunch, then two more hours, award ceremony, then back home.
my dad was so proud of me, it was weird! haha he told his sister and she said it was really cool, but i don’t think he understands how much i hate debate :p hahaha. he was saying how he’s so proud of me, how neat this is, that i need to get new clothes now (for future debate tournaments) i dunno :|
i felt pretty good the entire day, for waking up at 5:30, but wow. i never felt such an extreme crash before. at 10:00 i was in my bed with my two puppies (who are 3 now :p) and they were smiling and sleeping and loving life as they lie (lye?) in my bed, and i was talking on the phone to my friend, and i had such a desire to stay up late, but i felt like i was about to pass out at any moment. god. haha.
so i hung up the phone, but my puppies back in their cage :-( and went to sleep in less then like a minute XD haha.

theres so much more i could probably dig out of my brain, but i really have to do my homework now :p
see ya tomorrow, 9/15! (hopefully :b)