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Well, I totally fell off the wagon. I have been dealing with some pretty serious anxiety and it dawned on me that binging gets rid of the anxiety. Go figure. I am still optimistic. I leave in a day for a 3 week volunteer trip. That’s plenty of time to create a new habit. And I won’t be tempted or in situations where binging is an option.

I wish everyone the best of luck throughout the rest of April. I’ll check back when I return! (Hopefully revived and binge-free)!

Well… I have honestly not binged in quite some time. I am working to not think about food and not count calories and not focus on it so much. Therefore, I eat what I want, when I am hungry. If I want dessert, than that’s okay. There more I accept that it is okay to eat junk food (in moderation, of course), the less desire I feel for binging. Don’t get me wrong, I ate a bunch of sweets tonight. But it wasn’t in binging mode. I didn’t step out of my body or experience such extreme pleasure from having another scoop of ice cream. It’s just food and I refuse to let it continue having so much power over me.

I have to admit, the past week or so has been strange for me, but in a completely good way. It’s like a switch was flicked and all of a sudden I came back to myself. Even my counselor said she noticed I was more positive. That’s gotta be a good thing right? Even through my anxiety these past few days, I was able to not binge, and it didn’t even seem that hard.

I am tring to take a new outlook on life. Knowing that I did all this damage to my body through binging, knowing that I will reverse it when I am ready, knowing that I will do that in moderation. I am trying to be more accepting of myself. I think moderation is key. I even went out for frozen yogurt tonight. Usually the sugar would send right the pantry for a binge, but not tonight. It’s weird, the less attention I give to trying not to binge, the less I think about food overall and the better off I am.

This site has been clutch in getting even to this point. The support has forced me hold myself accoutable. So thank you all!