I'm doing 3 things
I have had it since i was a lil kipper and a few yeas ago it improved dramatically so, as one does, i became extremely lazy and stopped taking care of myself. stopped drinking the 2 litres of water needed, raw fruits n veggies (non-eczema flaring ones of course :) and most of all ceased all supplements (flaxseed, evening primrose). well, this past year it all came back with a vengeance…what did i expect after months of soft drinks, chocolates, desk job with no other exercise?!
anyhooo is not completely gone by any means but is defo under control… i got back on the flaxseed capsules (cant stress how important these are), water and i became reacquainted..a bit more fruit n veg plus getting more active and destressing. Yoga’s a really good one btw.. i never used to believe the hype but i do feel more relaxed after a sesh. and to remind me am not to slip in to old habits again i get flare-ups much more easily now so will sort myself out as soon as.
yes it would be nice to say sod it and not have to worry so much but as everyone knows there’s no quick fix so best thing is to keep your eczema sweet and take that extra care
till next time :)
mona237's Life List
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1. get rid of my eczema
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2. be confident in interviews
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3. actuarial
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How I did it: well its taken a while to figure out you're the one in control of how you perceive life which is really what depression is. you need to understand that there are always going to be things beyond your control but that's nothing to take personally.. it's how you deal with it right. easy to say, difficult to put in to practice i know but its worth the practice till you get it just about right else you end up wasting so much precious time mak… Read how I did it…
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ok so im interviewing at the mo… my confidence has been knocked a fair bit due to certain issues that developed in my last post (over-zelaous, fiery, power crazed female manager whose motto: “my way or the high way sweetheart”)..... im getting better but i have to say i had an inteview yesterday n it had to be one of the worst/ obscure ones…..
it was this small financial group that was just gettin started so they wanted a junior to come on board to perform ad hoc tasks n help out n then hopefully be trained on more stuff with time… bein an area i am v interested in i was excited about it…
sittin in reception the guy comes in (with his lunch in hand) and gives me this lil motion with his hand to follow him, bit casual but ok i thought.. we go in… he starts havin his lunch in front of me…. first question before iv even sat down he says “so wat irritates u”... taken aback by this i try think of a diplomatic answer… then more questions as such follows…. wat do u like in a job…wat dont u like? then my religion comes up.. he asks “so do u pray, fast etc…are u religous” ... and basically the interview went on like that….
nothin was asked as to what aspirations i have… why i want to come on board… wat qualities are right for the job etc.. very obscure…. i walked away totally deflated…i think its v unfair for a guy like that to abuse his position… fair enuf if he was tryin to suss out my personality but he seemed to be questionin it too… ah well…u live n learn eh?!!
so i thought i was swimming along brilliantly…only to sink once again…. found out his dad is terminally ill….it got to me…
i honestly did feel really bad for him… so silly me decides to check up on him evry now n then bla bla… i was ok even then but of course foolish me thought i could handle bein in touch so often.. could i heck…
a few weeks on and i was startin to revert to old habits… then i happened to speak to a mutual freind who told me some info i got upset about- specifically this info implied that my ex lied to me bout somethin that happened a while ago… irrational me does not take the calm route but decides to let him know exactly wat i thought….only for the whole thing to blow up into a huge thing… prob the biggest argument we’ve ever had..
after we kept hangin up on eachother and shoutin…i decided it was best to just leave well alone altogether- so i didnt respond to his voicemail… i gues it means we cant even stay in touch..AT ALL… even tho i feel bad about his dad etc it just cant be my problem anymore… wats more he doesnt even care if im there for him or not so wats the point….
its been a lil while now…..and im just tryin my hardest not to weaken for at least the next few months…hopefully by then i wont wana know wat hes up to anyway…but then again can never be too sure…this thing has dragged on for years…far longer than it possibly shud hav…. anyway progress shall be reported..i hope those who are also tryin to reach this goal find the courage to do so…
keep smilin
xx
