moniecat2004

So i went to the movies with dad yesterday. Papa didnt go, because he was tired, so it was just me and papi.
Well, i didnt want to see saw 5 but i ended up just seeing it, because it was the only thing that he wanted to see, and it had been a while since me and dad had one on one time.
I guess god can forgive me.
Today i was fasting again, but gramma said i did it wrong cuz i didnt pray. I hope gods not mad.

I feel really bad, and really happy at the same time. See, i made a hangout date for me and my dad on Tuesday, but the only problem is, is that he wants to see saw 5. I mean, ive already seen all the other 4 saw movies, but im a christian now, and thats not something i should be watching. Besides…it gives me nigthmares, and i really dont want to watch those ghoulish movies, wheather its against God or not. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night scared. I dont even know what im scared of, but i know that i cant fall asleep without the light. I wish i could overcome my fears. Some people say that the best way to overcome your fear, is to just face it. But i dont think this thing is ever going to go away. I wish it would. Today was a very good day for me today. I went grocery shopping with dad and i cleaned the house and did laundry. I was happy, becasue i didnt overwhelm myself and i still got plenty of things done. I wish my dad would understand me. But im just glad were not fighting anymore. I finnaly got ahold of kenya today. What a miracle. I actually got to talk to her on the phone today. Shes usually out with her friends so i guess i got lucky. Its 525 am and im still doing laundry,lol. But i dont care, becasue i cant sleep and im waiting for breakfast so that i can make sausages and pankakes for the family. Its really cold. I think im gonna put on a coat or a sweater right about now. I hope that dad doesnt wake up I hear some noises coming from his room….Oh no, i just heard him snore…lol.
If dad wakes up, he will have a cow cuz he will know that i never went to sleep, and he will start screaming and yelling and hitting me. Im so glad hes asleep.Im putting on my coat now, and taking a pee. BRB!....Well, im back but i have to go to bed now, or at least pretend, because i forgot to Disarm my dads alarms clock cuz he doesnt work today, so yea, now hes up. SO i g2g, but i will be back tommorow, good night/morning computer.
XOXOXOXOXO

Today i was so proud of myself, because i fasted for the first time….EVER!
I mean i did eat two oranges in the morning, because i do need SOME juices to get my body flowing, but other than that i didnt eat until the evening.
Im very proud of myself, and I intend on doing this often, like once a week, every saturday.
Wish me luck guys!!