moniqqque

wow, since i made this goal i gained some new vices. however, i got myself into some hot water (not with the law) and now i know that i had more to get out of my system than i realized. had i not made some poor decisions now, i would’ve made them later when there would likely be more at stake. i like to learn the hard way apparently. moving on…

my husband got the fellowship he applied for last october and now we’ll be leaving expensive so cal for the mile high city. from the beach to the mountains and we’re so looking forward to the new landscape.

after nearly a year of my brother not speaking to me, we’re finally on speaking terms again. he was mad at me because he did not stand in my wedding in the groom’s party. if he was my sister, he would’ve been a bridesmaid. if anyone had known how he would react, we would’ve had him stand as a groomsman. but he had made some really bad impressions on my husband while we lived in the same city as my brother. by the time he came around, it was too late. plans were made and all the groomsmen were hand picked and very special to my husband. my brother had been rude, inconsiderate, and even mean to my husband because he was jealous that he was being ‘replaced.’ he had a reading part in the wedding. we’ve been on speaking terms now for a few months and the wedding was nearly a year ago. it took tragedy, the death of my father in law, to bring him around and speak to me. i’m still not sure if i was wrong for not insisting that he stand in the wedding despite the way both my husband and i felt about his behavior, or if he’s a drama queen who can’t accept the consequences of his actions. i do realize that he cares about me more than he let on and that he speaks a different language that i do. i guess i’ll have to learn a new language for my ever inflexible brother. the things that happen during weddings and funerals…