Elize

I dont understand it, I’ve never had a boyfriend and I’ve never been kissed. I honestly dont know what I’m doing wrong. I act just like everyone else and I dont think that I’m ugly or anything. I was flirting with this kid for about 5 months and it was like we were dating and stuff because we would cuddle at parties and just hang together a lot. He was going to ask me out, but then he randomly asked another girl out. Since then, I’ve given up, and nobody’s liked me since. Does anyone have any pointers on getting a boyfriend that truely loves you, or what guys like in a girl? I am really confused with this and I’m the most innocent girl out of all of my friends and they make fun of me like I’m stupid or something (Like they’ll be talking about boyfriend/girlfriend stuff and they’ll be like ’ Oh, Elizeee, You wont understand what were talking about hahaha) or my best friend and this other girl won’t tell me any of their stories because I don’t have a boyfriend. They don’t understand how much this hurts me. I just don’t want a boyfriend to have one, I want somebody to love me because right now I’m not exactly sure what that is since it’s all been sucked out of me. Oh well.

This is my story of my weight loss. I dont recommend anyone doing this. Heres the positive effects and the negative effects. The negative effects outwieght the positive, so its deffinitly not worth it.

Positive effects of me doing this:

I’ve done this last year almost everyday. I would wake up, have a slice (1 slice) of wheat toast that had 0 calories and very low calorie butter (Brummel & brown). I then only drank water, and ONLY water. I then wouldn’t eat lunch at school. For dinner I would eat either 1 package of oatmeal, or maybe salad with no dressing. I would then go to lacrosse practice and run for an hour everyday.I think I weighed close to 85 lbs and I’m 5’6. I originally weighed around 115 lbs. I was so happy with my weight because I could see my bones. If I didnt see my hip bones, then I would think I was fat and go and exercise.

The Negative:

I was anorexic and I didnt really realize that I was. My mom thought that I had some disease or something and she was beginning to worry about me. My hair was getting brittle. I was always tired all the time too and I couldn’t find energy within myself to get myself through the schoolday. I would constantly get headaches and the hunger pains were unbearable. My bones and joints would always crack and make noises, and the worst thing was that I didn’t realize how bad I really looked. I thought I was fat even if I ate a slice of bread because I felt bloated.

Positive recovery: I finally realized that I looked bad and I looked better when I had weight on me. My friends forced me to eat things at lunch even if I said I wasn’t hungry, and my mom wouldn’t let me go over my friends house to eat dinner (I carpooled to lacrosse and we ate there). I slowly started to gain weight back, but it was hard. Sometimes I would even pretend to eat. I finally got over it and now I weigh 125 lbs and I am not haunted by my behavior anymore.

My advice to you is to not take it too far. Instead of only eating very little calories or starving yourself, I would eat healthier foods and food in moderation and maintain a good exercise routine :D Thats what Im doing now and I feel better than ever.

Positive effects of me doing this:

I’ve done this last year almost everyday. I would wake up, have a slice (1 slice) of wheat toast that had 0 calories and very low calorie butter (Brummel & brown). I then only drank water, and ONLY water. I then wouldn’t eat lunch at school. For dinner I would eat either 1 package of oatmeal, or maybe salad with no dressing. I would then go to lacrosse practice and run for an hour everyday.I think I weighed close to 85 lbs and I’m 5’6. I originally weighed around 115 lbs. I was so happy with my weight because I could see my bones. If I didnt see my hip bones, then I would think I was fat and go and exercise.

The Negative:

I was anorexic and I didnt really realize that I was. My mom thought that I had some disease or something and she was beginning to worry about me. My hair was getting brittle. I was always tired all the time too and I couldn’t find energy within myself to get myself through the schoolday. I would constantly get headaches and the hunger pains were unbearable. My bones and joints would always crack and make noises, and the worst thing was that I didn’t realize how bad I really looked. I thought I was fat even if I ate a slice of bread because I felt bloated.

Positive recovery: I finally realized that I looked bad and I looked better when I had weight on me. My friends forced me to eat things at lunch even if I said I wasn’t hungry, and my mom wouldn’t let me go over my friends house to eat dinner (I carpooled to lacrosse and we ate there). I slowly started to gain weight back, but it was hard. Sometimes I would even pretend to eat. I finally got over it and now I weigh 125 lbs and I am not haunted by my behavior anymore.

My advice to you is to not take it too far. Instead of only eating very little calories or starving yourself, I would eat healthier foods and food in moderation and maintain a good exercise routine :D Thats what Im doing now and I feel better than ever.