I'm doing 39 things
9.6.08: 1st page done
4 weeks ago
Well, I finally did it. I put together a book to be used as my art journal, and I completed the first entry!
gabby's Life List
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1. bleed creativity onto everything and everyone forever
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2. be a woman of wisdom
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3. be an "oak of righteousness"
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4. I want to lead people to salvation
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5. graduate from the school of ministry
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6. have favor with God
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7. Have daily devotions
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8. Be spirit filled and spirit led.
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9. let the holy spirit change me
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10. keep moving forward in every way
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11. focus on truth, not my problems
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12. beat social anxiety
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13. Be more confident and bold.
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14. have permanent victory with healthy weight and eating
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15. weight watchers
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16. Keep an art journal
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17. Take a digital photography class
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18. learn professional photography
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19. Get a digital SLR camera
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20. sell my photographs
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21. write amazing poetry
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22. Own an original Chihuly
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23. Artistically mentor children & teens
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24. get married, stay married, and live happily ever after
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25. find my Mr. Darcy
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26. move to Asheville, NC
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27. Go to Australia
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28. Go to Greece
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29. Visit Neuschwanstein Castle in Germany
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30. See the Amazon Rain Forest
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31. go to chile
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32. Watch a space shuttle launch
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33. See U2 in concert
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34. see Switchfoot in concert
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35. see coldplay live
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36. See Newsboys in Concert
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37. See Mutemath live
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38. See Delirious? in concert
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39. list one song a month to create the soundtrack of my year
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Recent entries
8.20.08: encouragement in prayer
1 month ago
This morning at School of Ministry we started off with a mini-chapel time of song & prayer. We were asked to spend a few moments in personal prayer, and I thought I would share my experience of that prayer time.
I have felt nervous and a little anxious this week about going back to school. It’s not the SOM program that causes the nervousness, I’m really thrilled and excited about SOM! But, it’s the actual physical part of GOING to school that makes me nervous. I wasn’t entirely sure why until this morning.
In my prayer I just brought up my anxiety/nervousness before the Lord, and thought about it for a moment. I then had the realization that my past schooling experiences have not been very successful.
Middle school: Did not fit in very well. I was teased a lot.
High School: Still did not fit in, still being teased and it affected me pretty severely. I was having tremendous difficulty trying to pass algebra and chemistry classes. I had several math teachers who I feel made things worse, not easier for me by not explaining things clearly or helping me after class. I ended up graduating with a technical/vocational diploma instead of the “normal” diploma. It took a long time for me to feel like I had successfully graduated. I felt like I got the “cop-out” certificate.
College: Had a LOT of emotional issues, very depressed the 2nd year, had to drop out one semester short because I could not get through algebra, and felt I was not emotionally strong enough to push through and finish.
The second College: I went to a tech/vocational community college for printing/graphics. But, the instructors were not really very effective teachers, the computers were not up to date and neither was the software. When I tried to get a job I got turned away because my school did not teach me what I really needed to know. So, I am not working in the graphic design field. I don’t want to anyway anymore, but the school experience was really a disaster.
So… now I see where the anxiety is coming from. The fear of having to go back to school and try to fit in and make friends, be successful, and be able to use what I will learn in the “real-world.”
As I was praying this morning I felt a peace in me and the Holy Spirit encouraged me that this year in SOM will finally be a victory for me. This year will be a full success!
God is Great and Loving!
8.20.08: great band, yucky venue
1 month ago
I finally saw Live! They were so awesome. But the venue was terrible!!! It was an outdoor arena that attracts mostly middle-aged business-y preppy types who just want to relax and hear some music while they talk. There is nothing wrong with that except that I want a ROCK SHOW. I paid $50 to see one of my favorite bands! I would like it if I could cheer and jump and sing loudly and go nuts. This was not that type of place. I went up to the fence so I could see them better and some lame dude said, “Uhh.. ma’am, could you move?” I don’t understand how someone can just sit there on a blanket and stare at a rock concert. But, maybe I’m just odd. Who knows. Once it got darker and the band got louder, I got into it, but for the most part I felt very stifled, uncomfortable, and self-conscious.
