mrdarcyroxz

i decided that be a concert pianist would be my life goal when i was 14. ever since then i have been working toward that goal. lately i have faltered and i want to get back to be a good student. i want to stop procrastinating! i know i can do this, i know i can get into music and play the music i love. i can resist the distractions the life throws at me. tomorrow i will be the better pianist.

I want to stop daydreaming about what might happen. i want to take control over my destiny rather than letting it control me. i want to start to do the things i talk about. i feel like all i do is talk about what i am going to do and plan and plan and plan them. but when it comes time to sitting down and getting them down, i flake out and starting to plan something else. i want to stop this horrid cycle and become somebody i can be proud of.

i want to be more patient. i feel like i rush through alot of things because i want everything in my life to fall into place now. i am still very young, but i feel like i don’t have that much time. i am afraid of dying i guess. i just want to be happy, and i am impatient to find that happiness. i think i rely too much on others for this happiness i seek and need to find it within myself. maybe if i am more patient with life, i will be happier.