mrhope

it’s been 4 months now – most days one 15 minute session in the morning and one last thing at night. i think it’s worthwhile: much less anxious, more productive (i think), and my short-term memory seems better. also, weirdly, my dreams are more colourful, eventful, interesting

good luck all

more than two months in, and i extended from 20 mins a day to 30 mins a day a few weeks ago. i have tried to be true to my resolve, and i have missed only one day.

some meditations have been good, where i felt that my mind was still and tranquil; most are still punctuated by long bouts of daydreaming or blankouts in awareness. however, i think the very fact of sticking to meditation, even through periods of boredom and wishing to get up and do something else, has been very helpful. i think i am more productive as a result, more focused and decidedly less anxious. it is a little like having found untapped reserves of willpower, but not quite: it’s more like unpleasant tasks have become less unpleasant and i can do them with less effort, less avoidance, less dislike

i’ll keep at it – hope you all do too

it’s how many months, now? four or five. do i miss it? not at all

am sleeping better and thinking better, and probably making better life decisions as a result

i was never an addict, i guess, in the aa sense of the word, but giving up was life changing; my social life – almost barren in the first place – no longer exists. but the trade-off in terms of less anxiety and self-doubt, greater self-confidence, and best of all, a clear head, has been worth it

to anyone struggling through the first bitter month or so of giving up – keep working, it gets easier, it WILL make you happier