mrj171

I am torn between wanting to have fun and just enjoy spending time with my wife of a year and starting a family. I don’t really know what I want for sure, it seems like just yesterday I was starting college and had my whole life ahead of me, now it’s time to start thinking about creating a life when I can barely take care of myself. It is scary but I’m sure it will be the greatest thing in my life to have children.

I used to not have a care in the world, even when I had a stressful job that kept me up some Sunday nights things were still great. Before I started being anxious and stressed all the time I was kind of drifting through life, now I am in grad school and married so I guess that stress is just part of the price for growing up. I still believe I can have both a fulfilling life and no stress! I will try to not take things so seriously and remind myself that most of the things I worry about won’t matter in a year anyways.

Some days I wake up full of piss and vinegar ready to go, most days though I put everything off until the last possible second. I can have a 2 hour break and still show up back to work 5 seconds late after breaking my neck to get back. I also put off homework and other tasks until the night before or even after they are do. I hate the feeling of always running behind, I guess I will try to make myself do things I don’t want to do.