not with people that I don’t feel comfortable with. The big thing in that category is family members. They really press my buttons. They probably don’t realize it, but they just really irritate me- especially because I see them as so different from me. They are so cold, judgmental, narrow-minded, and ELITIST- blah! How did I end up as part of this family?
I just can’t relate to them and I am at a loss for words when they say stuff that irritates me or could be a little bit off-putting. Then I don’t say anything, I try to ignore the irritating comment, then I start feeling upset not knowing why, then I realize it, then I get mad at them but especially myself for not defending myself, then the anger and resentment just builds.
So I am thinking of taking an assertiveness class (they actually do exist!) and hopefully that would help me reach my goal.
Glad I found this site today. Last night I woke up early in the morning and started thinking about how mad I am at my sister who is so invalidating and rude. She thinks she’s better than me so she treats me like shit with no apologies. I can’t believe I wasted my time thinking about how mad I am at her (and especially myself for putting up with it),when I could have had a nice peaceful night. I guess it’s all that anger that has been building up inside until it decides to explode at 3am.
I think about how I am going to tell her off in my head, then I get angrier and angrier til I can’t fall back asleep. She has been doing this certain thing lately that really put me down and embarrasses me and I can’t wait til she does it next time so I will stand up to her and feel better about myself!
What resources are out there to help me besides meditation and a shrink? What good author/writer/blogger/expert is there to help me and meet other people like me? Someone mentioned Kim Cooper but I can’t find anything on her. Please help. i would really like to make this my goal and it starts today!