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I still haven’t lost weight. I’ve lost a little bit but I most definitely haven’t gained any. I don’t know I’ve been sick to my stomach over a crappy guy and now I don’t know if I lost anything or not. I like lived my life for someone else. Now I am even more motivated and even if I make mistakes I am not going to give up. Hopefully since summer is comin and I will be home… I can eat right. Plus, I am getting a job so I will have something to preoccupy me. The guy I spoke of was sort of keepin me stressed out and sleepy because I was doing everything for him. Removing myself from his dependent, obsessive, jealous personality is going to give my self time to think of what I want for myself. I must lose this weight. 2 years ago this was not the kind of person I was. I obviously have will power because I was a vegetarian for 2 years and I have made myself study and go on through school no matter how much I thought it sucked. I believe i can do this. i will continue to try. Once I am away from this negative atmosphere at school and I am not worried about boyfriends and such i can really focus on excercising and doing what makes me happy. And I can think of alot of things that make me happier than food!

I didn’t really get new friends but I pruned out the bad friends and I got back in with the good ones. Now my life seems alot better and I can focus on other things. I now have my best guy friend back and my friend Jasna has taken over in the best girl friend department. I feel a little better now but I still need to quit being soooo shy and just talk to some new people.

I really don’t have much to say on this. I can ride now and I am happy. I flipped it a few weeks ago but that is just part of the deal. It was fun though.. No one got hurt