Julie

I have combination skin. I’m using PURPOSE facial cleanser, then Merlot Grapeseed moisturizer. About once a week, I use aspirin and a toothbrush to exfoliate my face.

This is just something I feel like doing. I never ever grow them out; I would trim them whenever even the slightest bit of white shows. It feels like they can get in the way so I don’t know how long I’ll go!

I don’t know how I manage but sometimes I can go on 1 cup or 2 cups of water in 1 day. I know this is horrible to my body so I definitely need to drink more water.

It’s not that I want to separate, I want to make things work. Commitment!

I’m not really big on taking professional-standard pictures right now. I want this goal because I think pictures are a special thing. A lot of things are appealing to the eye and I would like to capture those moments more often. I would also like to create many memories. Photos are like captured time.

I miss having close friends to the point where I feel lonely too often.

I’ve had quite a handful of close friends before but we never stayed together. I love having close friends because we can share things where we would normally doubt ourselves too much to express or embarrassing things if you were to say it to somebody else.

I’m not sure what happened to one of my first close friends but he stopped contacting me and his mother restricted him of many things.

A somewhat recent close friend, I ended up ceasing contact. He was too busy with his own little world to devote time and conversation to me. I felt hurt and didn’t want it to continue. I still miss him very much but I have to accept that sometimes long-distance friendships won’t work.

I would really be grateful if I could make future platonic close friends and keep them for the longest time. If it had to end, I would want it that we grew apart because that one seems like it would hurt the least.

I think I know where they’re hiding. I just need to know how to encounter them!

I am an Internet freak. I spend most of my time on it. I use it for my entertainment and for many resources. I also try to use it to make friends but maybe I am boring.

All the people like me are hiding… indoors! The Internet is as big as the world with barely any directions, how do we bump into each other?!

Making goals is important but even when you complete your goals, do you realize it? Do you understand that you’ve made an achievement? Reflect back on what you’ve done and what makes you proud. They don’t even have to be goals you had, you can just reflect back on things you feel that you’ve improved on and perhaps it was a goal you didn’t know you had.

I feel like I sleep ALL DAY. I want to minimize this but still get at least 8 hours a day.

I get tired very easily and I can fall asleep without knowing. I think I have a iron deficiency (because I don’t eat meat) so I will buy iron supplements when I get the chance and also take more walks so my body doesn’t think it’s sleeping.

I want to complete and maintain this goal because I am getting very far behind with my work and would like to stay on top of things.

It’s strange how I feel like my eating and physical activity has remained how it was two years ago even though I have gained so much weight and the fact that I will run a few steps and get out of breath.

I have gained 20 lbs over 2 years! Wouldn’t it be nice if I had lost 20 lbs over 2 years?

My goal is to lose 5 lbs. I only say 5 lbs now because I want to make it a reachable goal. Even if I stay at a 5-lb weight loss, at least I made some progress!

I plan on doing this by becoming more aware of what I eat and to go on more walks, even if they are solitary walks (and in the freezing cold).

I am currently taking Interpersonal Communication. In that class, we learn how to better recognize our emotions and express them healthily to become a better communicator.

I would like to practice these skills. I would like to recognize my emotions and learn to cope with them a lot better than I am doing right now.

Don’t let your emotions get the best of you!

Instead of focusing on the long-term goal, I am focusing on what I can achieve in a shorter amount of time. I am making reachable goals so it will keep me motivated.

My long-term goal is to be able to speak Japanese.

This goal is to learn basic Japanese vocabulary.

Allow yourself to be selfish. Of course, most of people who have low confidence or low self-esteem will think selfishness on a different level to what regular people might interpret it.

A regular person might think to be selfish is to ignore the fact that a pregnant woman needs to get into the taxi to get to the hospital but the person gets in before her because he is late to go to work.

Someone who lacks self-esteem might think to be selfish is to think of their own desires and acting upon them is disgraceful.

Yes, there are limits but indulge in yourself every so often. If other people do the things you keep yourself away from, why aren’t you allowed to do it as well?

Sometimes I get a little excited and I just rabble on to strangers. Afterwards I wonder why I did that, or why I did it so much. I want to not care about this any more because I’m not harming anyone.

When people need a response from me about me, I come up with lame excuses or lies because I’m not used to talking about myself verbally. It would be the smallest and general things like, what did you think of the test? I would answer the opposite thing that was on my mind.

Coming to America, I have learned that you say “excuse me” when you get in someone’s way (or they get in your way but you say sorry anyway). Hopefully adjusting to saying excuse me when I feel I made mistakes and at the appropriate time will help lessen the sorries!

I have moved to the USA not too long ago and managed to get a job at H (retail). I enjoyed it very much although I was only on a seasonal position which I had to be laid off after the busy times.

I went on another job search and I got accepted at W (retail). The people who work there are great people but I have a bad connection with customers there. A big majority of them were impatient and frustrated even if they are second or third in line. I find this odd. I am know that I am new but I also know I’m not working at a slow pace. If I was second or third in line, I’d be overjoyed because I know I don’t have to wait long. I’ve also had racism from customers. I felt too overwhelmed with this job so I quit after only several shifts.

I’d love to work for H again. I have reapplied online and I will call during their hiring period. I like H because support is easy to get. There are at least one floor manager and there are several other managers in other departments. I can reach people easily in different dept. with a touch of a button. I felt safe and comfortable.

I’d love time to fly by and to graduate and get a decent job but now I need to find some job that will accept me and I need the funds to support college and food. I’d love to spend some money on leisure items. Even now, buying food is considered a leisure item to me.

For anyone that may catch their eye at the last part of this entry, I have come across a blog that I feel motivates me and I’d like to share it with you: http://blog.penelopetrunk.com/

I usually don’t mind this because I have been used to this. Lately it has been bugging me because I’m being horrible to myself and finding things I don’t like about myself. I’ve been told by my husband several times that I keep getting walked on.

I enjoy being a nice person and I wish people saw it as being nice. I don’t like being taken advantage of and I expect other people don’t like it either. I’m also a quiet person, I barely speak my mind even for the smallest things.

This will be a gradual process but I would like to succeed in this goal.

I know it’s people who are usually uneducated/misinformed about who they racist against and I should take no notice because they are not really worth the time BUT I am still unhappy with racism and I get hurt when it is geared towards me/my race.

It’s not how I want to respond verbally but how I want to respond mentally. I want to be able to accept the fact that some idiot(s) almost ruined my day(s), and find some way to express my uncomfortable feelings without harming anyone.

Whenever this happens, the event sticks with me and I’m afraid to do the things I did where the event happened. For example, at work, I feel anxious every time a customer with the similar appearance of my attacker arrives and I avoid work.

I am married and live with my husband and mother-in-law. I go to college five days a week and I am surrounded by people. I make small talk with the other students.

I still feel lonely.

I understand why I feel lonely but I don’t really know how to help myself. I feel lonely because I miss the company of friendship. I have never had many friends in my life. Even friends online helps me. I love those hours of chatting about nothing and laughing at nothing. I love the happy memories. I miss those moments.

I have done a little search of what other people say to do when you’re feeling lonely. For example, go to networking sites, chat rooms, find new hobbies, join a club. I don’t have much time to do things offline because of studying and work. I feel that I’m a little abnormal and have not got the same interests as everyone else. This is getting long, I’m stopping now.

Remember to do the things you can’t when you’re around people e.g. dance around naked in the house and sing horribly

After moving to America, I have realized transport here is a lot more difficult.

In the UK, public transport wasn’t only for the unemployed (stereotyping, sorry) and walking was convenient because of diverted pathways instead of being next to the roads all the time whereas here, it is complicated to cross roads where you have to wait several minutes to cross one street.

/lol rant

I want to learn to drive
I get driven every where and I feel like a kid but I’m not age to be called a kid. I need to be drove to work and college and sometimes schedules don’t fit with my helpers.

I want to learn to drive so I can stay after college for activities or extra help from teachers/labs. I would like the convenience of transport and not dread awkward conversations with my mother-in-law. I would like to be able to complain and relate to gas prices (hahaha).

To complete this goal, I need to save up enough dosh; somewhere around $300, find my available times and a suitable driving school.

Thank you.