I'm doing 41 things
is super cliche. and it would be completely impossible to live a life without ever having a feeling of regret or doubt at some point. but from now on i am going to try my absolute best to think out situations before acting impulsively and ending up feeling empty.
murasakibarentain's Life List
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1. plant a garden
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2. become a magazine editor
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3. learn guitar
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4. stay positive
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5. have an advice column
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6. write a book
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7. take cooking classes
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8. learn to poledance
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9. go rockclimbing
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10. visit Amsterdam
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11. hike the appalachian trail
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12. inspire someone
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13. practive yoga more often
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14. have a great relationship
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15. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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16. gain ten pounds
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17. find at least one thing each day that makes me happy
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18. bellydance
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19. regret nothing
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20. get motorcycle license
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21. skydive
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22. stay at underwater hotel
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23. be in a horror movie
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24. go to oktoberfest
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25. dance like no one is watching
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26. stay semi-vegetarian
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27. travel
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28. live fast die young
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29. overcome borderline personality disorder
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30. adopt
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31. start a new life
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32. not be so indecisive
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33. take more pictures
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34. reinvent myself
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35. get my tattoos done
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36. donate more
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37. go to more concerts
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38. stop being paranoid
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39. learn a new language
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40. get in shape
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41. stay true
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and something about being one-on-one with nature & connecting to all the beautiful things it has to offer is a great feeling. from what i have heard there is an amazing part of the trail in nj which is strenuous but incredibly rewarding. i’m hoping once i am in better physical shape i can make this trip happen!
I’m just wondering if loneliness and BPD are related. It seems like it’s almost entirely impossible for me to feel and/or maintain a connection with anyone. This affects my relationships immensely and I wish I could just relate to someone and feel that they actually understand what it’s like. I’m grateful and very lucky to have a few close people to me who love me with my flaws and all & are somewhat supportive of me. I hate this. And I’m curious to know if this is something people with BPD are born with, although most books will say that it is often a result due to a poor childhood upbringing. I’m not completely convinced. Even more concerning is the question if I’ll always feel this way for the rest of my life. Feeling hopeless and praying to get a job asap with insurance benefits so I can get to a psychiatrist.
