muygrande2100

I’ve decided to remove a deadline, due to alot of factors. No deadline, but the goal itself is intact.

I’ve decided to reach for this goal for numerous reasons.

One is clear to me. I’ve been made fun of and judged for a good part of my life so far, and only a year ago did I find the courage inside to break free from my shell, stop fearing what people think of me and do what I please, despite other people’s opinions and remarks about it; because if what I do makes me happy or funny or some positive feeling, that I should damn right do it. Now I’m no saying that I still don’t have my insecurities, because trust me, I have lots, but I don’t feel myself fearing what other people think. My problem is that I’ve found myself making fun of other people at times, and I know that if I’m doing to other people what I’ve been through and still am going through at times, then I’m no better that the people who did so to me. I don’t see why on the bus my fellow classmates and friends make fun of other people just for the fun of it or because they don’t like them. I mean sure, I don’t like some people, but I don’t go all kong-fu on their ass about it. Leave them alone. If they want to do something, then they have the right to do it, no matter what other people judge them by.

Also I think its karma. If I don’t make fun of or judge people as much, then the same will happen to me. But if I do make fun and judge – well you get the point.

I’m not saying its go to be easy, but I’ve got to try. This might all sound a bit cheesy, but it’s true.

I’m still trying to find an ideal hobby, but I don’t know what to consider a hobby and what to consider just a past time. I was thinking writing, but I’m not completely certain.

Any ideas or comments anyone?

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