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I see that in 15 weeks time I still have yet to get organized or get my house clean. This really sucks! I am sooooooo disappointed in myself…but no time to wallow in self pity…Today I was jarred into the fact that I better get my butt in gear,I woke up with the word Procrastinate like it was tattoo on my eyeball. Everything surrounding me seemed to remind me of my lack of focus and determination. I even did a web search on “how to stop procrastinating” got bored reading halfway thru a mental health tip sheet. I want a quick fix…but it ain’t happening!

So what am I supposed to do??? I guess I really have no choice  but to motivate myself...but how? I get so bored,or lazy...no energy level...boy what a dose of speed could accomplish for me...but  they took all those "diet" pills off the market...not that I reccommend anyone taking them ...but in my case I do happen to have a weight problem....seriously!!!

Today I am going to take pen and paper to hand,make a list of my "goals" and sit and figure how I am going to manage to get myself into gear...I have only been trying this for the past 20 years with no luck...not saying miracles don't happen,but anything is possible I guess.

If a blind man from Georgia could learn to play the piano why can’t I? He may been blessed with a divine intervention to pound the keys, a blessing I wouldn’t mind being bestowed with! I did take lessons as a kid,but when your a kid who really wants to learn to play? Now I wish I had paid better attention during those lessons…instead of goofing off and practice playing with my feet…which I tried but it didn’t sound much better then it did when I tried playing with my fingers…and I had another flaw…I played by ear…I don’t know if that was a bad thing or a good thing but the end result is I don’t play…and then I found it diffcult reading music and making both hands work the keys at the same time…co-ordination not being a talent I can claim either! So hopefully my attention span is better now then it was then.

This being the start of another new year,this is one of the top resolutions made,and usually the first one to be broken! I however would rather moon the world with a nice slender,firm enough to bounce a quarter off of tushie then the doublewide,overloaded trailer I’m toting around. Yes it is said that some men like some “junk in the trunk” but not a semi trailer full of the junk!

And I really hope I get to accomplish this feat..the only downside is all the money I’m going to have to spend on a whole body tuck afterwards…see they never tell you about what happens to all the skin you have leftover once you reach your idea weight…the skin that drapes over your frame like a bad fitting slip cover on a couch.

So as I start to count calories…I am going to count my pennies…ok dollars…so I can pay for that overhaul!