myfuturelies

actually doing this one!

big words make my head explode.

the past constantly produces itself, therefore giving you new stuff contend with. the only way to get around this is to ensure the present stays super, without any slips, to let oneself properly deal with everything that has already happened.

tough.

apparently i’m doing very well with this one. which is nice.

learnt some but not enough really. had to do it for interactive module, but flash annoys the crap out of me.

maybe play with it a bit more. even if it’s only to make intro and loading screens.

this completely changed my understanding of images, and how i can communicate ideas in my own work.

go read mythologies by barthes if you’re interested.

i do! i actually friggin do!
there’s dennotation, which is the obvious: a picture of shoes is a picture of shoes.
there’s connotation, which is the meaning of the shoes: those shoes are sexy.
and there’s myth: the person in those shoes is happy and gets laid all the time. i wanna be like them.

SEE. i know things. awoohoo.

need to rant about this more…

writes such big books. and the littler books have such big words in them. and i have such a big pile to get through. and they’re in leeds and i’m in derby. and there’s SL…

still can’t do it. still blind as a bat. still clueless.

free at last. leeds rules!!

metal metal metal metal metal metal metal metal metal metal.

i’ve seen them, not as much as i would like to though!! it always seems that someone can’t come, or everyone cancels at the last minute because of the weather instead of just hiding in a pub…
i’m trying to organize something before i go…

most of my photos have been poor quality / crappy digital zoom / crap lighting photos of geese, ducks, squirrels and the odd person i know.

still, it’s an improvement… not on my skills but atleast i have more things to look at and remember good times by etc.

i’ve been reading almost every night before i go to bed. i’m not exactly memorizing everything but things are going in. the last chapter of the book looks to be the most interesting, stuff about man ray and some other photos i actually recognize. just need to finish all of these before i move out and have to hand them back to the libary…

a bit english bit french.

actually think about what it’s going to be like when i leave in a couple of weeks. some things i’m not going to miss at all, they’re the reason i’m wanting to move out in the first place. but a lot of good things have been happening recently and now i’m starting to realise that there are some things i’m going to miss so much. like not being able to just meet up with everyone.. and everyone is moving to different places… i’ve just got to remind myself why i’m doing this…

problem is that i’m not having any. i’m not lying awake at night unable to turn the little ideas maker off, instead i’m just sleeping. some people might think this is a good thing since i’m getting more sleep, but in all honesty i just want to be like i was at the end of art foundation.. unable to sleep, drinking shitloads of coffee and staying up all night getting repetitive strain injury from spending too much time on my mac.
i think it will come back once i’ve got a brief in front of me (i hope) but i want the craziness back. please.

this one really annoys me. i find it so annoying when directors and film makers completely ignore the laws of physics because they think that adding sounds makes it more realistic. THERE IS NO SOUND IN SPACE. SOUND CANNOT TRAVEL THROUGH A VACUUM. as you can see it really does annoy me. if they’re in the upper atmosphere, i’ll let them off. if they’re inside the ship and the cabin is pressurised, then fine, there would be sound there. but if they are in the middle of the void then NO. NO SOUND.
they’re lying to the viewers, altering the truth in a crappeh little attempt to make it more believable. Kubrik didn’t need fancy whooosh sounds!! he had some music!! that was really good!!

‘nuff said.

getting obsessed with light. i just really like it. i really like seeing. just taking in as much as i can. i want to understand what light actually is. i think the photon theory that i was taught at school has been disproved (nothing to wave in a vacuum FOOLS), and i think i read somewhere that it’s vibrations from the 5th dimension but i want to know more.