mysteryof2009

For about the last year, I have been having a lot of trouble keeping a clean house….

I regrettably changed jobs 10 months ago, and this new job brings me home burned out, with very little energy to do anything..

I live alone, and have very few visitors. Recently, a friend of mine called me and says he is coming over for a visit, and would be here in 30 mins… I had to rush around to pick up junk, and hide dirty clothes and dishes under the bed… I felt pretty embarrassed to have a guest with the house in that bad of shape… I had to apologize quite a few times for the mess, needless to say, he didn’t stay too long…

I guess I need some tips on how to keep things organized when coming home burned out at least 6 days a week, and only having 4 awake hours at home on those 6 days. I am dreading it now having the warmer weather and soon having to start trying to fit cutting grass and other landscaping into the picture..

I wish I had a crystal ball…

Last year I after some hesitation decided to leave the job I was content with for a new job. A friend of mine encouraged me to do this, thinking it was a better opportunity. Reluctantly, I agreed to, and did it. I really wished I listened to my first intuition.. I regard this as the biggest mistake I have made so far in my life…. I have said that I hope this is as close to hell as I ever get.

I am at a place that makes parts for the auto companies, mainly General Motors. But that is not the problem, it is just a miserable place to work….

They work people like a slave, and the next day expect more and more. One person bitches at me to do something one way, and someone else comes by and bitches at me to do it another way. If something isn’t running right, and I’m making a lot of scrap they get pissed off at me for bothering them, as if I am supposed to know everything about a machine and part that I have only done twice. If I knew I wouldn’t ask for help.

I work at least 6 days every week, and some days 10-12 hours, and come home with no energy to do anything but lay around miserable and depressed.

I tried more than once to get my old job back, with no success…

I live in the state with the highest unemployment rate in the USA. Even though it is bad here, I would like to stay here. I have known others who packed everything up, put their house up for sale, and moved away to some other state, just to end up coming back with more turmoil then when they left.

I never went to college, and after working in this hellhole with other people who have college degrees and such, I have to wonder what is the point of college when they just end up with a miserable low paying job like this.

Several years ago, I did it. I went from 210lbs to at my lowest 160lbs. I felt confident, did not feel embarrassed to be seen. I actually had dates, and was told I looked good. I met someone I thought was special.

More recently, I had gone through a painful divorce and a very bad career move, which has taken a toll on me. During the divorce I had shot back up to 210lbs. I had exercised and got down to 185-190, before I made the bad career move. After that I lost a lot of energy, and have stayed for the most part between 185-195.

I have done the wellness checks offered at work, and have been told I should be at 169 for a healthy weight. I have made that my goal.