I realized that I was lying to try and control my surroundings. I thought that if I told people only what I wanted them to hear then they would do what I wanted them to do and I would get the results I wanted. Sometimes it worked, but most of the time the end result was worse once the lie/deception was discovered. I started to see the exact opposite of what I wanted and I was becoming the exact opposite of who I want to be. So, I finally realized that in order to really be free from the bondage that being a liar creates…always trying to remember who I said about what and to whom…I have to stop trying to control everything. I decided to let God be God, let the laws that He set in motion govern what happens around me. Now I am honest. I am honest about how I feel, what I want, where I’ve been, where I want to go – and let the chips fall. My life turned around suddenly. I went from being a somewhat lonely person, kind of on a plateau in life to being a friendly, optimistic person – I got a huge promotion and I’m getting married next month. I’m honest with God about my mistakes and desires, honest with myself, and honest with people around me. Honestly, it feels great to be free!!!
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How I did it: I took an extra summer job, saved money, rented a car, bought a tent, and enjoyed life.Saving money so that you don't get stuck in a sticky situation or have to call your parents is a good idea. I got a map and just circled places I've heard of, and thought about visiting - then I just drove.Try not to schedule campsites or hotels in advance because it puts you on a schedule and can make you feel rushed.Exception - if you're going to visi… Read how I did it…
I fell in love with Jesus Christ!! I couldn’t ask for a better friend. I am learning how to be alone without being lonely, and how to truly love.
I think that a lot of mistakes single christians make, especially women, are related to getting our emotions tied to people we are not married to. While it is normal to have feelings for the opposite sex I realized that I shouldn’t let my feelings for someone else be stronger than my feelings for Jesus. My soul was longing for God, but I was trying to find it in men.
The passage of scripture that helped me find peace and fall in love is 1 Corinthians 7:
Verse 8: This is what I say to those who are not married and to women whose husbands have died. It is good if you do not get married. I am not married. But if you are not able to keep from doing that which you know is wrong, get married. It is better to get married than to have such strong sex desires.
and 31-35: While you live in this world, live as if the world has no hold on you. The way of this world will soon be gone. I want you to be free from the cares of this world. The man who is not married can spend his time working for the Lord and pleasing Him. The man who is married cares for the things of the world. He wants to please his wife. Married women and women who have never been married are different. The woman who has never been married can spend her time working for the Lord. She wants to please the Lord with her body and spirit. The woman who is married cares for the things of the world. She wants to please her husband. I am saying these things to help you. I am not trying to keep you from getting married. I want you to do what is best. You should work for Him without other things taking your time.
Those passages were from Paul’s letters to the Corinthians, but Jesus also speaks of this in Matthew 19:10-12.
I know that marriage is not a sin, but now I realize that if I am going to enjoy love and sexual pleasures while I am on earth, it should be with a godly, respectful, loving man that serves the Lord with me.
But don’t just take my word for it. I want you all to be happy, so…read it and fall in love!! God bless you.
I just completed my first semester and I really feel like I accomplished something. Even if I have completely missed the point, I applaud myself for surviving the first semester with the enthusiasm to return. Unfortunately, I won’t receive my grades until about 10 days into the second semester :( I am making a commitment not to measure my success by grades but by my personal growth, only because law school grades can be disappointing and discouraging. Best of all, I am officially one step closer to achieving my goal of succeeding and graduating from law school!