nemoisorange

i’m not going to leave my boyfriend. he puts up with all of my crap and genuinly loves me. plus i don’t need this drama. I’ll stick with what i know best. If that other boy and i were meant to have a turn around the world then it will come. As for right now, i’m not done with the man i’m with now.

Another thing discovered. I am the type that always needs to have something going on. some kind of a excitment. And i’ve noticed that in my relationship if there’s nothing exciting going on then I’m realy not happy and its hurting the relationship. I’m difficult. But, the one who is worth being with me won’t mind that now will he?

Welp, here we go. Of course, I would get myself in this situation. There has been this boy that i’ve always had a thing with for a few years now. even when we both have relationships going on. It’s not that we cheat or anytyhing like that there’s just always “something” there. so when i recently started dating my current boyfriend i stopped talking to that boy because i didn’t want to interfer. I haven’t talked to him all summer and about a weerk ago he called me to catch up. We’ve been talking since and ofcourse the excitment has given me major butterflies. I don’t know who i want to be with now. That man, or the one i’m with now.

but im not the type to break someone’s heart over something dumb. So i said to the boy “lets wait until school starts. see how things go. if we have classes together if the chemestry is still there. i don’t wanna worry about it over the summer. its too much drama for me and im perfectly fine the way i am right now. I see my boyfriend almost everyday and i dont wanna ruin that on something stupid that i dont know what the outcome will be”

i hope i did the right thing. I’m going to sit down with my boyfriend and tell him everything that has been going on. hopefully this is a good decision. Am i being mature? or just plain dumb? you decide.