I was just about to check this off the list. Until I realized that there is NO WAY. I can check this off the list!!! No. way.
I have so very little actually figured out! I have so much more that I need to do.
Where do I want to work? Where do I want to live!!? Those being the most primary two these days.
Anyway. That’s all I have to say right now.
Figured out where this is going on my body! Now I just need to decide on what side! I think I know though.
Now I just need a design. And… to mentally get ready to do it. If it actually ever happens.
I’m not sure this is ever going to be “done” but I have made this just a part of life at this point. It’s easier when you’re in charge of your own budge, which has started to be the case in recent years. It’s mostly just a priority of what I decide. I’d much rather spend more money for less food, knowing what I’m doing is good for myself, and for other people.
...Who needs to spend all of their money on junk food anyway?
I have thrown MANY-a-dinner party at this point. But not the one in my head.
The one in my head has this amazing meal attached to it. With a very small group of close friends. Bottles of wine, dim lighting, candles, and lots and lots of laughs.
The only thing that I’ve thrown has been larger. ALSO a ton of fun, but the problem is that I think I just have too many friends! Have you ever sat down and been like “Crap, if I invite this person, I need to invite this person. and then this person needs to be invited too!” And the next thing you know, there are 15 people on the list!
How does that happen people?! Either way. Someday this will happen!
For a long time I didn’t have very much fun. It’s really true! I didn’t live up to that whole “College life” Kind of situation where I partied a lot, but also worked really hard. That didn’t happen for me at all. I worked a lot.
I also held myself back. There is no question about that.
Recently, something clicked in my head. There is no need to hold myself back, because every time I’ve let myself go and do something that I would have ordinarily held myself back from- guess what? I had and AMAZING TIME. Every. Single. Thing.
So why should I still hold back from potentially amazing situations? That’s my question. To anyone who reads this? My answer is simply: Don’t do it. Try it. Give it a shot. If you DON’T like it, then ask yourself two questions: 1. do I not like this because I’m self conscious or because I know someone else wont approve of it? or 2. Do I just really, really, not enjoy what I’m doing right now? If it’s 2. Don’t do it again. If it’s 1. forget what people think. Be yourself. Then re-evaluate the situation.
It took years. It is still taking time now… But I’m getting the hang of this “having fun” thing. And it’s amazing.
I think I’ve finished this.
It just kind of occurred to me that I don’t spend very much time worrying these days. My new method of life is more along the lines of: I’m just going to roll with it, and something is going to happen. For the best.
That’s what I’m thinking. For sure. So… Do I worry a lot now? I really don’t. Done.
So, I have a friend, and he drives standard… But then he totaled his car.
Before that happened I was learning! I could do it pretty well in fact! I just needed more practice. Maybe I can convinced him to help me out on that front again very soon. Because, this is something I can, ALMOST check off the list!!
I probably wrote that last entry years and years ago. ...Haha, just looked. Five.
I’m marking this off the list. Now that I am city living, walking actually is just a part of life. I’m not sure I’d want to go on a walk at this point because it’s something that happens so frequently. Instead, this is going to be replaced with “go for bicycle rides” just for the hell of it. Because THAT isn’t something I’m doing for leisure.
I don’t weigh enough.
And right now, I don’t want to gain the amount of weight that I have to in order to complete this goal.
I’ll just considerthis something that I’ve given up on, that I’ll re-open later on when I can.
I’m also going to remove this for now because I have at least signed up to be an organ doner on my licence when I went to renew it.
Almost two years later I realize that this is never going to actually happen.
This is a character I played. It was wonderful, but she is not who I am. I was her. And we’ve both moved on at this point. Or at least I have, you can only more on so far when you’re a character in a play. Ha!
I’m in junior year now, and still going strong on the fair trade coffee initiative. And it’s become SO much easier to come by in only two years time.
I also just bought myself fair trade hot chocolate yesterday. I’m not sure if it’s more or less tasty. But I don’t care. I would rather drink something a little less delicious is it means that someone else has a better life.
I also try to buy fair trade soap if I can get it. I really enjoy Dr. Bronner’s Magic Soaps. Smells great.
I also JUST read that fair trade banana’s are sold now. Not anywhere around my location, but somewhere it’s happening. I wasn’t aware that that was an issue? Of course though. Of course.
I kind of took a vacation from this place. But I’m going to try and come back.
This seems like the best place to write an entry about, because above a lot of other goals, this one is very important to me right now.
I worked WAY to hard last semester both for my mental and physical health. I can’t let myself do that again. I need to take more time for myself and do the things that make me happy.
Even if it means trying to sacrifice my school work a little bit. I know that it’s important to try and do well, but if getting the A is hurting me more than helping, I’m doing myself the greater disservice.
So yeah. Have more fun.
I actually did this just the other day. It was later at night, but the weather was fantastic for springtime. I was just in one of those moods, and instead of coming back the way I’d come, I turned a corner and decided to see where I ended up. It was a really nice walk actually, and I just kind of looked around and saw stuff. Very worth doing. Espeically at night.
I’m getting close. Very very close!
I’ve finished knitting all of the yarn that I bought originally. Not I just need to decide on a size, and buy the yard to put the entire thing together.
We’ll see how long that takes me.
So, late this summer I went out with one of my friends and we went on a REAL adventure. We wandered around an abandoned factory for an entire day. It was creepy. It was amazing. I can’t wait to go and tour around there again.
It was a fantastic adventure.
So, I had half of it done last year… And while the secret was only really relavent for that year, it was/is still a secret.
And I mailed it today.
...And it’s out of my hands… And that kind of scares me a little bit.
I think… I could be wrong in saying this. But I can mark this one as DONE.
I’m currently babysitting 3+ times a week… And that’s a lot time with the chillins.
... I’ll see how it goes.
Okay, so, the last time I updated I had only finised the bathroom. After that I cleaned the office. Now, much to my dissapointment, it’s a little cluttered again. It’s clean, but the papers… THEPAPERS!
However, the bathroom has been maintained, I just cleaned it again today, a general wipe over that is. But that’s all it needed.
And, for the last two days I’ve spent my time cleaning my bedroom. That turned out very VERY well. I:
-Painted both the shelf, and the tv stand
-cleaned out all the cluttler in the desk drawers, and that pile to the side of the couch.
-moved the desk OUT of my room. (Finally! _)
-moved the mushrooms around and made them look okay
-moved all of my books around so now they actually have a home with the addition of the new book case.
-lots and lots of vacuuming!
Now I only have to tackle the guest room. Which is a disaster! And re-organize this room a little bit (office) before I can gross another goal off the list.
Then on to the rest of the house too. The kitchen floor needs a good scrub…
31. Tool – The Pot
This may or may not be one of my favorite songs. I’m still a little unsure myself. But it’s very good… So I’ll remove it if I see fit a little later.
30. Ani Difranco – Napoleon
I actually looked this song up after my former teacher listed it as her status on facebook. And, I’ve loved it ever since then.
29. Flobots – Handlebars
While this song is becoming very popular on the radio, I have but one statement. I was listening to this song long before you were, and the version they play on the radio is no where near as good.
28. Chin Up Chin Up – Why is My Sleeping Bag A Ghetto Muppet?
This song has kind of become part of my summer anthems this year. I’ve always loved the song, and it should belong on this list, but particularly so right now.
So… At the moment, everywhere I look is covered in disaster… or old. My goal is to get rid of one or the other… Or both before the summer is through.
I started with the bathroom yesterday, and finished it (more or less today)
-Cleared out the clog in the shower, the GREEN way. (I hope it worked, have yet to test it)
-scrubbed the walls and floors hands and knees style
-cleaned the sink, shower, and toilet
-got all of the cobwebs
-took everything off the shelves and dusted those
-changed one of the blown light bulbs
-Painted the rusted baseboard and scale a fresh coat of white
I’m pretty sure… That that room is CLEAN now.
...On to another section of the house.