never2bnvain

My sons are feeling under the weather and honestly I’m quite disgusted watching the snot fly around. My youngest doesn’t yet grasp the importance of using tissue and covering his sneezes. Yuck!

I write all of that like what I’m doing most people don’t consider to be just as gross with the way eliminations go. This week was one of my slowest workout weeks so I’m gonna go hard at it today. I feel fine. In fact, for whatever reason I’ve been cooking detailed meals for my sons like crazy. I don’t eat meat so it’s not like its much of anything for my pleasure. I still feel it must have something to do with the fact I’m not eating now. In hindsight, I’ve become a lot more creative with their meals and have managed to get them to eat more of the good stuff. But they are only two and so leftovers are a part of it. Which definitely helps as my days tend to get busy.

I am extremely lonely now… That makes me weary I may run in the wrong direction based solely off of that feeling. I must learn to keep moving forward regardless that I lack anyone in this flesh to walk with me. Getting through these emotions while on the MC can be a little harder because it seems everything is intensified. Where before you had a hint something wasn’t right, now it’s like it’s in bold, neon lights flashing dead ahead… WRONG!!!!!

So many issues all around me right now… this clarity the MC brings makes me want to decide what way I will deal with them all. Family, friends, ex-lovers, running a new business, clients, finances, health- the list goes on and on. And so must I.

When the spectators are watching you closely just to see if you fail… let it push you that much harder to succeed.

Good day… I guess. I was contemplating how long I was really goin to do the MC this time. I have a goal in mind so we’ll see. Either way, I’m posting here as faithfully as possible. Today was sort of blah. I’m about to take my tea and hula hoop for a while as I watch this movie Reeker.

Til next SWF-