The big red spots usually distract me from the scars that are piling up on my face… but now I’m starting to clear up a little. The clear spots give me incentive not to pick, and I’m just waiting for the one sore picked spot on my forehead to heal.
I took a really good look at my skin last week, and it looks like a war zone. It’s not thick and clear and healthy by scarred and bumpy. The only way to fix it is to treat it as well as I can and to stop picking… it’s been 2 years now, and I hope the damage I’ve inflicted on my skin won’t last forever.
I still feel like picking incessantly at every little bump that seems to hide stuff below my skin, but I’m trying to view the bumps and natural, therefore they must be let to heal naturally. I hope things keep going well. Best of luck to you all.
Nov 29, 2006, 07:50PM PST | 1 cheer | 2 comments
It’s so odd, the feeling of pressure, the disgusting trapped stuff that I know is underneath my skin. My fingers seem to have more skill at feeling out every little bump than even a blind person’s would. When it’s there, I just can’t leave it. It’s like I’m addicted to the release, even the moment of pain before the feeling of satisfaction.
Even as I do it, I know I shouldn’t, I know I’ll regret it. But I just can’t seem to stop. Even worse, when it scabs, I pick off those too. Not nearly as satisfying though.
The worst is when I press and squeeze and all I get is clearish liquid and blood. Then I feel so disgusted with myself.
I think that if I could keep my hands off my face, I would be so much better off. How to do it though!
Aug 17, 2006, 03:39PM PDT | 3 comments
I’m a recorder player and I adore renaissance music… I started a recorder community too… you should all check it out!
http://community.livejournal.com/recorder_love/
Jul 24, 2006, 07:58PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
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