newlifeAT16

So me and my old best friend are friends again!!! We talked finally after like, 6 months!! It s crazy but its like we never stopped talking. I thought things would be a little wierd at first, but they’re not. I guess thats how real friends are though- no matter what, true friends are true friends (even if they dont talk for 6 months).

So…..I have serious spending problems. I am a shopaholic. I couldnt save money if my life depended on it. I was telling my friend today about how I was moving to Cali in a few years, and the first thing she said was, “California is expensive. I could see you spending your rent money on shoes and having to sleep on the beach”. And ya know what? Shes right!!! I could see me doing that too!!!! Its horrible and I hate it.

I simply have no motivation-thats my problem. Its kind of sad to think that at such a young age I have no hope. Well, I DO have hope- hope for my future. I’m excited for my future; I just wish my future could come now instead of later. Although I suppose, technically, you’re future will never come, b/c referring to your future is referring to what WILL happen-not what is or has happened. Your future turns into your present once you reach it, and so then it is no longer your future. You then have a new future awaiting you….....

Hmmm…..thats is all completely besides my point though. I wish that what I have planned for my future could come sooner, but it cant.

And so, my body, mind, and soul is completely drained of any motivation until I feel like I can actually do something to help me achieve my goals/dreams.