So me and my old best friend are friends again!!! We talked finally after like, 6 months!! It s crazy but its like we never stopped talking. I thought things would be a little wierd at first, but they’re not. I guess thats how real friends are though- no matter what, true friends are true friends (even if they dont talk for 6 months).
So…..I have serious spending problems. I am a shopaholic. I couldnt save money if my life depended on it. I was telling my friend today about how I was moving to Cali in a few years, and the first thing she said was, “California is expensive. I could see you spending your rent money on shoes and having to sleep on the beach”. And ya know what? Shes right!!! I could see me doing that too!!!! Its horrible and I hate it.
I simply have no motivation-thats my problem. Its kind of sad to think that at such a young age I have no hope. Well, I DO have hope- hope for my future. I’m excited for my future; I just wish my future could come now instead of later. Although I suppose, technically, you’re future will never come, b/c referring to your future is referring to what WILL happen-not what is or has happened. Your future turns into your present once you reach it, and so then it is no longer your future. You then have a new future awaiting you….....
Hmmm…..thats is all completely besides my point though. I wish that what I have planned for my future could come sooner, but it cant.
And so, my body, mind, and soul is completely drained of any motivation until I feel like I can actually do something to help me achieve my goals/dreams.
So, I talked to my friend and we are definately moving to Cali together in a couple of years!!! I’m so excited. Its so expensive though; and I want to go to design school to be a fashion designer, so its way expensive. It kinda sucks, but I’m going no matter what!
So today was awesome!!!! I dont know why but for some reason I was in a really good mood at school today & I was having a great day!!!! Then I went to a show thinking my day would only get better, but it kinda sucked. I’m a quiet person, so until I get to know someone, I’m pretty quiet around them. So of course I didnt know anyone at the show except for my friend & I felt totally out of place! It suked and I hate feeling that way. I always tell myself “just be more outgoing!!! its not so hard-just say something, ANYHTING!!” it doesnt work though. I just dont feel comfortable around people I dont know & I dont know why. Its not like Im self conscious, I just dont know what to say…..
k so, I used to have so much fun ALL the time when I was with my friend Sara. But then we stopped hanging out for like, 6 months. Well, just recently we started hanging out again and she calls me all the time, so I guess we’re like, best friends again-which is awesome. We have so much fun together, and thats more than I can say about any of my other friends. They’re all so obsessed w/ their boyfriends that they dont care about any of their friends. And they dont like to go out anywhere w/o their bf. Its ridiculous. Sara has a bf, but she isnt crazy-obsessed, thinking hes gonna leave her if she doesnt spend every second w/ him. I hate high school!!! I get bored so easily, and that includes people. It sucks
I’ve found that exercise does a lot more than I thought. I didnt even have to change my eating habits to lose the weight. Now granted, I’m not an extremely overweight person in the first place, so I dont have to work that hard. But I wanted to lose 7 pounds and I did!
New year, new start. Everythings going to be better this year. Getting a job is at the top of my 43Things for a reason. I applied at Bob Evans and Ruby Tuesday’s today. hopefully someone will want me.
Over my 2 week winter break, I exercised every morning when I woke up. Since I have gone back to school (which was only 5 days ago) I have only exercised twice. I guess thats not too bad, I just dont have the same motivation I had over break. I need to get back into a routine.
Last night, me and my sister ran around our neighborhood for about 20 minutes. I found out that I’m REALLY out of shape! she kept me giong though, b/c I felt the need to prove that I could. Thats why its good to have someone to workout with; they keep you motivated. Tonight We did taebo, and I did the whole 40 minutes instead of 20. I’m proud of myself!
78. I have determination
79. I can make my dreams a reality
80. I am a dreamer
81. I have a great sense of humor
82. I dont take myself too seriously
83. My feelings dont get hurt that easily
84. I know when people are joking
85. I dont let rude people get to me
86. I stand up for myself
87. I stand up for my friends and family
88. I stand up for things I know are right
89. I am a christian
90. I am a pretty good drawer
91. I am a good designer
92. I read a lot
93. I am good at math
94. I am a good student
95. I am a good friend
96. I am a good daughter
97. I am a good sister
98. I am a good aunt
99. I am a good shopper
100. I am an amzing person!
67. I’m actually saving my money
68. I get these little phases where I’m like, obssesed w/ something (magazines, yogurt, propel water, ..) lol
69. I have good grades
70. I have good hygiene
71. I can be a partyer or a laid-back hangout kind of person
72. I think about things before I say them or do them
73. I take risks
74. I have patience
75. I have morals/values
76. I stick to my morals/values
77. I dont give into peer pressure (well everyone does a little bit) but I dont when its like a big deal or a big thing (smoking for example or sex).
10) “Okay” by Nivea b/c its just an upbeat song. First of all I just really like the song. But I can dance to it and its a feel good party song!
9) “Because of You”- Kelly Clarkson b/c to me it’s about someone who is afraid of committment and afraid to trust b/c of somethingor someone that has hurt them in the past. I’ve come to realize, with the help of a friend, that I have trust/committment issues. I honestly think its b/c of my parents and they way they act.
I used to be horrible at saving money. As soon as I saw something I liked, even just a little bit, I would buy it. I saved up over $700 during my 2 motnhs of working at Sonic (b/c I never had time to go out and spend it). As soon as I quit there, I spent my $700 in a about a month- on clothes and things, not even like bills or whatever (b/c I dont have bills). So I bought a purse the other day for $20, but it was good b/c thats not much for a purse and it is the most amazing purse ever! Besides that I havent been spending any money since I got my $120. I think I understand how much I need to be saving for other, more important things.
I’d say I’ve had a lot of fun here and there the past couple of weeks. I want to have like, CRAZY fun!
I know I NEED a job NOW b/c I could really use the money. But then again, I dont really NEED the money. Sure, it’d be nice to be able to go shopping and buy a car and what not; but right now I could do w/o those things. I’ll let me employment break last until I turn 17 at the end of January. I figure it’d be really nice to have the holidays off and not have to work. So, when I turn 17, I’ll go apply at some places and hopefully get a job then. So, for now, this goal is put on hold.
So, my horoscope said today was supposed to be one of my good days- so far I wouldnt call it a good day. It wasnt bad, but its not horoscope-worthy good. lol Yes, sometimes I DO believe in horoscopes. It was right about the beginning of my month being hard to find quiet in my house. Well, I guess I still got the rest of the night for it to be good.
