newvanessa

Well maybe I am recovering..still I dream about Mike, but I am doing better moving on with a new man in my life that I feel I can love and trust. This is a good revelation and I am happy about it. As I know I have to let Mike go to love another. Especially when the other is so worthy.

Amazingly enough one day I was going for a horse ride and I met a man on a horse…and well it was like ha!!! How did that happen…. I was so busy wondering how I was ever going to get over Mike…just doing my own thing and when I finally started doing the thing that makes the happiest the most wonderful man appeared in my life. Sometimes we have to go full circle with our life.

Well I admit that my heart is mending, but it is far from healed….

It has almost been a year and a half…still I do not think that Mike has ever been further that 30 minutes from my mind.

I keep praying and I keep having faith in him….

Wednesday the phone range. The first time since he left with out an unexplaination…..it was him. He talked for 15 minutes, I listened. I have never been very good at that. I asked him how his life was and he said it is slugging along. He then told me that he was working on building a garage and had bought a piece of property to put his shop on. I listened very carefully. See those were the two things that I had concerns about. One that there was no garage to park my car and he doesn’t live in the worlds best neighborhood and secondly I wished he would move his shop out tof the living room. Mind you he had another living room, the house is 5000 square foot. But I guess I just wanted the shop to be in a shop not in the house…. He would never give on those two things. Said there was no room for a garage and that he liked the shop in the house. So we bought the lot to build our own house on. Then I finally made a decision to start on the house and he was gone that same day. If I had just listened then…really listened to him. I would have realized he really never could give up that house. So here he is 10 months later…building a garage where he said it was impossible to build it and moving the shop out of the house…after 24 years.

......and…..

then he said “he wouldn’t be unopposed to going to have sushi”.

I told him I was very busy but that ususally on Tuesday and Wednesday I have a little more free time…and that maybe next week I would have time. He said okay, I said great give me a call, he said he would and I hung up….

I so wanted to say can we do it tomorrow. But I refrained and let him have the ball in his court. I mean really I have waited this long what is a little longer. I think it will take him longer than 1 week. But you never know.

All I know is I have FAITH in him. I think he has been working on the things that he needed to….