My final year is going to be demanding, that’s all I can say. Teaching full time and working on my M.Ed part time evenings – is it worth it? I’m assuming the answer is ‘yes’, but at this current point, I question my initial decision.
Even though 4 courses last year left me exhausted, after my first class last Monday, I left feeling completely overwhelmed.
As I sit here reading these articles, I can foresee plenty more late, late nights. I fear I will be bonding with my computer moreso than with humans! Oh yeah, and a thesis – of which the first 2 chapters are supposed to be written by the end of this course (December)! I guess I need to finalize my topic ;)
There is a place for everything and I also think that there is a time for everything. We are all just visitors, and I truly think there is an ‘ultamite place’ for each and every one of us. Granted, the cause or reason for something happening may not be explainable at the time, or further down the road, which I usually find is the case. However, on further reflection, I’m amazed at how well choreographed life is. It’s the will of something more powerful than you or I. That just shows me that ahhh, “someone” up there knew it was going to happen the way it did, otherwise how? Confusing, yes?
Of course there is the pool of people who challenge this notion and always need to be in control of every situation. I’m not one of those people. I can take whatever is dished out at me, because even if I decided to alter some thought or action, it was meant to happen that way.
You ever have one of those days where you feel like there is no possible way that you can accomplish a thing? Well, that’s what is restricting me from ever attempting anything worthy of my efforts. I know I have much to offer. Too bad though, that I’m strapped in with the fear of failure, or moreso, the embarrassment and implications that it would play on my conscious. To some, It’s a ridiculous and foreign characteristic, but for me, it’s a big hesitation and would take a ginormous (gigantic+enormous) leap to think that I am as worthy or deserving.
There are an infinite number of things I am grateful for. I know that I won’t be able to express my gratitude for all of my fortunes (family, friends, etc) but I think I have to take this less for granted. Yeah, family will always be there, but when was the last time I thanked them? It’s been a while, let me tell ya. Gonna try to let them know.
I’ve had a good week – and have managed to think less about ‘him’. Perhaps because I was preoccupied with balancing everything else that’s important. However, it’s still there, a bit. I think reality is starting to sink in slowly and that I’m wasting my energy which could/should be diverted towards other positive things.
Today I woke up at 5:30 am to go for a run. It wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be to get out of bed. It was so beautiful, because it was snowing. So serene. Just me and my thoughts, telling me that this was a good choice, and that if it’s something that’s important to me, there’s nothing to stand in my way.
but I hung out with some friends from out of town. That was fun.
There’ll be repeats, so I’m OK with that. I don’t watch much of the tube, actually only this show (and the news).
As I continue to learn about the numerous language theories that have paved the way for second language acquisition, the more interested I become. (this is a good thing – actually, an AWESOME thing!).
You see, from what I’ve read so far, when you are learning another language, there are basically two different camps on how this happens. One, based on Skinner, is the behaviourist approach. His theory was that our environment (surroundings) have the most influencial effect on second language learning. Then there was Chomsky, whose ‘Universal Grammar’ theory stated that we all have an innate disposition – that is, something programmed inside of us, that automatically allows this kind of learning to happen. (very difficult to test) What do you think? p.s. These are just theories, but they have definitely had an impact in the area of linguistics. Researchers of second language learning continue to uncover fascinating developments in this field. I can see the relevance and importance of these theories for my Masters in ESL education. It’s becoming clearer and clearer each day! Hooray! Knowledge is good!
- signed Miss. Smarty-pants :)
The holidays were really good because I had a lot of ‘me’ time away from work. Getting back into a routine has really thrown me off my goal, which makes it seem that much less achievable. January has been a poopy month for me, because I’ve had difficulty refocussing. That said, I am on day 5 of detoxifying with liquids only. It’s going OK. I hope I can keep it up and not give in to temptations for a few days longer.
There’s a part of me that would like to attend. I haven’t seen too many people from my class in the past ten years, so in that respect, it would be nice. You only hear about those that have gotten married and/or have had kids. Some of my hesitations revolve around sharing my non-existent social life on account of teaching and working on my Masters. I’m sure the evening would be nice and that a lot of the cliques formed in high school would have deteriorated. All-girls schools are a culture of their own. I sat somewhere in the middle of wanting to fit in and not caring. So I have no strong feelings about going or not going. We’ll see…maybe I’ll get married and have a few kids in the span of 6 months to have something to boast about…on second thought, I might take the opportunity to justify buying a new pair of shoes! ;)
Oh, when will HE realize that I am waiting for his love…
His lovely eyes, (as deep as chocolate)
His strong hands, (yet perfect for embracing)
His soothing voice, (as gentle as a lullaby)
His sincere words; (kindness like no other)
I have fallen in love, but he does not know it
My obsession with HIM is as agonizing as it is euphoric
Should I? Could I? Tell him, I cannot.
Foolishly weak.
Such is my feeling of falling in love
Teaching grades 2 & 3 for the past few years has caused me to speak in shorter, concise sentences outside the school setting. My word choices tend to use three or less syllables. I sometimes refer to my friends as “boys and girls” when we go out! It really is funny, and I’ve been caught using my “teacher voice” with them, which is not always appreciated. (but I DO get their attention!!!- hee-hee)
From our early childhood days, we were cabin buddies at camp. Twenty years later, we’re still tight. Those pyjama parties were always a hoot! We’re actually planning one for next month. Who said a bunch of single twenty-something ladies cah’t have a sleepover?!? Unfortunately, we won’t be knocking on any boys’ cabin door…boo-hoo
This, I would say, is my most difficult challenge. At this point, I am not happy with my physical state. I have my good days, but they are followed by a whole bunch of poo-poo days. (pardon the expression) When you are carrying extra pounds, who wants to go out in public? Certainly not me. Still quite a ways away from achieving this goal.
Think of how much good you could do!!! I guess I’m talking about the big, whopping money lotteries. Those kind are most people’s first impression when ‘lottery’ is used.
But what about when you unexpectedly receive a compliment. or a phone call from someone you haven’t heard from in a long time? I consider those instances to be ‘lottery’ situations too. (I’ll take the money kind too!!!)
Now THIS is a show! Some good writing and awkward situations make this one a keeper! It’s the only show I look forward to watching. A highlight to my week. Even thought I’m not a doc, I think many people can relate to the predicaments these characters face. 5*’s
I think that we all have this ablity, unknowingly. To what extent this happens is determined by the individual. You try to make the people around you get a sense of what you think of them, right? Unfortunately, more often than not, I think that we do this indirectly, I sometimes feel a tingling sensation from a comment that a friend has made (either positive or a critique) which, in turn, inspires me to do something about that. we all have this power. Hopefully this ‘power’ is used for good rather than evil. There’s enough of that to go around the world a few times, eh? (yes, that’s how we Canadians end our sentences up here in our igloos ;) )
