Nikita

until I find true happiness.

There have been numerous changes in my life over the last few months. My son moved out, I refinanced my house on my own, I started and ended a relationship, my company was purchased and I still have my job.

I’ve rolled with all the punches and think that I may be well on my way to finding what truly makes me happy. It’s not anyone thing, it’s more complicated than that.

It’s finding true love, taking care of things on my own, keeping a roof over my head and a comfortable home and doing all the things that make me happy.

I think true love is hard to find and the other things are much easier. Things start out well usually, but they deteriorate or they change and you realize that it wasn’t what you really wanted in the first place. Maybe I need to be a better communicater or maybe I need to know when it’s time to move on a little sooner. Not sure, but I am still working on this one.

This will have to be my top goal until I achieve that complete happiness I am looking for.

Even with all the stress I have dealing with over the last few months (ending a longterm relationship, dealing with house crap, changes in my employment) I am very happy. I met someone a few months ago who treats me the way I feel I deserve to be treated. He is an amazing person. I enjoy spending as much time as possible with him and miss him when we are not together. I feel he understands me. We have similar long term goals and dreams. I am looking forward continuing this relationship and am very hopeful of our future together.

There have been so many changes and then there are some things that have stayed the same.

I am still living in the house and it’s still listed. It’s not selling despite my best efforts. Since October 3 people have looked at it. I’m getting the feeling there are not enough qualified buyers in my price range.

The ex stopped paying his share of the mortgage in November and somehow I have managed to make the payments myself. He told me if I could qualify for a mortgage on my own he would Quit Claim the house to me. I checked into it and qualified, but the ended up denying the loan because the house is listed. he is refusing to pay his share or sign the house over to me. I have threatened small claims court via certified mail. It has been 10 days since he acknowledged the receipt of my certified letter and at that time he told me he would consult a lawyer, get back to me in a week and do whatever the lawyer told him he needed to do. I have heard nothing. If I hear nothing tomorrow I will file a suit with the small claims court for the back mortgage payments and his share of the carpet that was installed in August since he signed the agreement. I told him I would take care of the the carpet and excise taxes if he signs the house over to me.

This is all so very frustrating. I wish he would be an adult about this, but it seems he is not capable of that.

In a month it will have been a year since we split up. I really don’t want to have any further contact with him, but as long as the house hangs over my head I will.

He no longer has access to the house so that’s good. The locks have been changed and I will not be giving him a key. All of his mail is being forwarded to him.

Here’s to hoping this is all done soon. I really am ready to have it all over.

update

The ex did not consult an attorney like he said he would so I contacted mine. He suggested in reduce the sales price so he wont even profit from the house when it sells. He also suggested I stop paying the mortgage payments, but I wont be taking that advise. I have good credit and want to keep it that way.

I now have 2 showings for tomorrow so I’m cleaning up the house for them. Hopefully one of these buyers likes my place. Fingers and toes are crossed.