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well i have maybe about 3 friends but i don’t get to talk to them much and i always feel like the odd ball out! like i don’t fit in. i just want a person that i can totally and truely be myself with and talk to and hang out…. im 21 now and i have no one to really share my life with (well my boyfriend) and he is my best friend but i want someone outside of my relationship that i can talk to and hang out with and goof around and be silly little girls kind of like a selena gomez and demi lavato relationship. hopefully one day i’ll find that special friend!

I have always been interested in piercings and tattoos but at the same time i am the bigest baby and chicken… getting my nipps pierced had joggfed my brain a couple of time but i never thought i”d actually do it but this past 09 valentines day my friend said she was going to get it done spur of the moment! i went with her and after i saw hers i definately said “hell no!” but the guy that pierced her had also done a couple of my tattoos and he was really cool and cute and he talked me in to it! :) it honestly scared me shitless but i dont regret them and i love them… it did not hurt as ad as i thought they would have or as some people make it out to be! i say if u want it… GO FOR IT!

So… it has been a long horrible while but i’m back… ad i feel that it is with a vengence this time!
not only fall off track with losing weight but i gained about 20 pounds… and i have done the (what i thought) un-do-able!!! i hit and passed the 300lb mark! and i feel worse than horse crap! but i’m gonna try to turn this around and WELD AND GLUE myself back on track!

so i’m gonna start over…

I am a total of 308lbs
i want to lose a total of 160lbs (which is another person) i am starting TODAY 2/24/08 8:09pm.
I refuse to gain another pound!
and to really give myself an extra push… i have purchased a tredmill and i have set my self up on a plan of at least walking and jogging for an hour a day… 30-45 minutes in the morning and again at night.
if anyone out there has any pointers, suggestions, cheers or anything please feel free to send a message.

Start weight: 308lbs.
Goal weight: 160lbs.
Total estimated time: 17 months.
1st goal: 290 lbs